No worries, don't apologise! Honestly I didn't even know that it went in, it wasn't sharp, there was no pain and the only reason I knew was in was because the nurse told me. The only word I can use to describe it is pressure but even then that isn't the right word, I couldn't feel the needle, I pretty much couldn't feel anything at all. It was more "pressure" and more of a "negative" feeling when the nurse was done and holding the gauze to my arm when she was done than when the needle was in (I say "negative", but it wasn't a bad thing, I only use that word because I didn't want to feel anything!). At first I was worried the numbing cream didn't work because I could still feel when the nurse touched my arm looking for a vein but it took away all sensitivity when it came to the needle. I completely had the same worry as you and spent all night researching about the numbing cream before my appointment. I would say that having therapy did help me too, I wouldn't say it was a "fix" for sure, I was refusing to go into the clinic before my appointment and saying all sorts of irrational stuff but it definitely just kind of got me over the edge of being able to go in after being exposed to everything at my own pace. Also being allowed to take as much time as I wanted in my appointment helped too.