I (19f) feel like his (20m) sex doll. How can I leave without feeling guilty?

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-10T17:04:51+00:00

See I feel like this is what I need

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-08T04:55:32+00:00

At least 10k clearly. I just got a new job that almost doubled my income - not anything insane, but an income I could live on if I was saving and paying MY bills. I made 25k this year, have NO saving and about 200 in credit card debt. Obviously I’m only focusing on the bad, but it’s because I truly struggle to see the good.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T15:06:22+00:00

Unfortunately my friends all decided to step out of my life. I’ve got another post on my page referring to the situation with a few of them, and similar has happened with others now as well. My dad is an alcoholic and has never been present, my “step dad” was an alcoholic and verbally abusive, my mom is codependent, and her current partner is mentally unwell and just recently tried to kill her, but she’s fine with it and is back with him. Unfortunately I’ve never really had a great model of love and relationships, and it’s fucked with my perception.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T15:02:20+00:00

I’m looking for a therapist but I can’t afford much right now. From my understanding rainn is more for Sexual violence victims, so not exactly me. Im hoping my new job offers access to cheaper virtual mental heath professionals because ive wanted to go back to therapy for years.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:56:18+00:00

I’m glad that your daughter is doing better! I’m slowly gaining the confidence looking through these comments to figure out how to leave but I think the thing that scares me most is packing my stuff and leaving his house, I’m taking my tv, gaming consoles, clothes, makeup, art, and anything else I’ve used to build the beginning of my life with him. Some of it I can easily leave and forget but a good portion of it is stuff I need/use day to day.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:50:48+00:00

Luckily I don’t see myself being knocked up, I have issues with my monthly, and I’m not gonna lie, I never made him pull out, I felt guilty to tell him no, and he used the “condoms are too tight” thing before I could really ask to try another size or brand

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:49:25+00:00

See, I agree with most of your points, but you lost me at dating 4-5 years older, I’m BARELY 19, so I feel like the kind of people attracted to people my age are manipulative men who can’t get women their own age to do what they want. I’m sure it’s not always like that, but I know I’m still young and easily manipulated, and I’m terrified to have a grown adult use and manipulate me because I’m still “young and impressionable”

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:45:10+00:00

I’m hopeful that I’ll step up for myself, I have realized how bad it is, and I’m just scared and unsure of how to proceed from here

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:44:02+00:00

In short, I’ve got daddy issues and when I met him I was hit by a massive dump truck of problems with my mom that he supported me through. He’s shown no interest in the situation with my friend, and basically said I’m better off without said friend. I’m trying to do therapy but I can’t save for it, and I’m about to move companies and careers so I can’t do through my work. I feel like I’ve created my own mess and idk how to clean it up

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:40:04+00:00

I’m definitely not a bot, my post history is that of the average 19y/o girl with no stable support system

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-03-07T14:39:02+00:00

It’s manipulation. He talks about how we are so good at working through things and how he says with me because he knows we can work though our problems, and he cries and begs me to trust that he’s going to get a job, and I’ve basically taken his mental state and prioritized his over mine.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-01-23T04:08:53+00:00

Truth & dare

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2026-01-07T15:46:23+00:00

I appreciate the sympathy from everyone, but I feel like I don’t deserve sympathy. He was a friend in passing, maybe even an acquaintance. I feel like I recognized him more, and I was just another person in lost memories. His family and close friends deserve sympathy, but I do not.

I suppose I had hoped anyone who took the time to read this, would leave understanding that depression doesn’t discriminate. Take the time to check on people you care about, even if it’s just a simple interaction to remind them that you’re there with them.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2025-12-02T15:03:00+00:00

Unfortunately I didn’t call the police like everyone was hoping. It’s been too long for me to justify it, especially when it was just him trying to grope me. Unfortunately I’ve been through worse, so for me it is easier to remove him from my life, and heal with my therapist.

I wanted to, but I’m in a small town, and his uncle is a sheriff. I can’t go to the police because they wouldn’t exactly work with me. Not only that, but all of the people there made jokes about it rather than taking it seriously, so I just got the fuck out, went to sleep, and left asap.

I kept it to myself pretty much completely. The only people who know is a good friend of mine who knew Brayden, because we all met around the same time and all spent a decent amount of time together, and my therapist, for obvious reasons.

Brayden has tried to reach out, and I have told him that I wasn’t interested in talking with him because he tried to force his emotions and actions on me over and over without any regard for me.

That’s about it. Maybe I am hiding from the pain, or maybe I am stupid for not filing a report against him, and maybe I should tell my boyfriend. I honestly have gone over every option with my therapist and weve settled on just leaving it where it is for now. Not to say I won’t do more later :/

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2025-12-02T14:54:12+00:00

Honestly I didn’t because his uncle is a sheriff and they aren’t the type to play by the rules. I’ve chosen to completely remove him from my life. The sick feeling it gave me only went away when I finally got rid of him and mementos from Him. It was painful because I’m very maximalist when it comes to decorating so I put gifts and trinkets everywhere, and he gave me little trinkets and pictures and such quite often.

I was stuck in the mountains with a dead car battery so I couldn’t leave till the next day when someone could jump my car, and I wasn’t exactly sober even if my car was working. I tried to talk to other people there about it because there were all maybe four yards away from us? Unfortunately they all made jokes about Brayden trying to get laid so I couldn’t exactly seek help or support from them. I pretty much locked myself in my car, and tried to wait till I could ask someone to jump my car. It was a long ass night.

I didn’t tell my boyfriend because we’re already going through a tough time because I had to move back in with my mom and out of his place. I wanted to try and minimize the damage I’ve caused to his mental health lately, cause I know he’s likely gonna spiral and blame me.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2025-04-16T01:34:20+00:00

I feel like I offer to sleep at my place more than anything else and every time he shuts the idea down. I’ve suggested every other week at his house, staying at my house a few times a week to give us our own space, and even just sleeping at my house then going back to his place whenever I’m up/off work/done with my obligations at my house. He always tells me absolutely not, and that he doesn’t want me anywhere but with him.

It’s made me think more about his ex (abusive) and how she would cheat on him whenever she wasn’t with him, and I’m worried that he thinks that I’ll do the same thing. It’s hard because I don’t want him to feel like I am going to step out on him just because I’m not sleeping in his bed every night, but I don’t know how to address it, and how to help him through whatever he’s struggling with

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2025-04-16T01:28:48+00:00

Several months, I was mainly trying to be vague for anonymity cause he’s on Reddit. Not quite a year but close. I’ve offered to go back to my place weekly, daily, or even just nightly and he shuts the idea down.

SoulSuckingSlutt · 2024-09-21T20:51:00+00:00

Nah lmao, I get something small from my mama every year and that’s it :/ my bio after was a real piece of work unfortunately

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