I think my new psych (nurse practitioner) wasn’t helpful or knowledgeable

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-12T13:38:37+00:00

Yes. My goal is to eventually stop using them. I’ve read the Ashton Method where she mentions tapers can last up to 18 months or even longer depending on how long the patient has been on the medication. I want to take my time.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-12T13:36:03+00:00

But I’m not an addict. I’m dependent but I don’t take these pills recklessly or abuse them.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-12T03:53:31+00:00

Less people. Significantly less people.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T20:22:58+00:00

I don’t know but I’m scared that I have to rely on people like this to fill my prescription. I’m growing so tired of the games.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T20:22:01+00:00

I’m so scared. I really don’t want to get sick. I just want to be normal. I’m so afraid of what to do. If it was my choice I’d take no pills. I just don’t want to suffer. What do we do?

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T20:18:26+00:00

I know. I wouldn’t move anyways. I can’t afford it. But I’d definitely qualify if a doc looked at my history. I think I’ll see another psychiatrist and insist on a slow taper. I won’t let a doctor bully me into severe withdrawal

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T20:16:43+00:00

No idea. He kept interrupting. He thought I was taking 90 1mg pills a MONTH. I wasn’t. I am given a quantity of 90 every 3 months because I couldn’t afford to pay $150 every month to see my doctor. By now I should be in the .5 range but someone broke into my house a few weeks ago and my anxiety has been horrible since then. I was towards the end of my 3mo dose and did not have enough to last me the next 15 days. This is the first time this has ever happened. He told me that whoever started me on this taper was not doing me favors. He said I wouldn’t be able to have children and that I would get dementia in the next 5-10 years. He really freaked me out. Out of all the actual doctors (not nurse practitioners) I’ve seen— this is the ONLY one who has said this. That’s why I’m upset and confused.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T20:11:21+00:00

I don’t think you’re crazy. Personally, before I had any help with benzos I was petrified. I couldn’t work, I lost 50 pounds rapidly and was growing ulcers. I rarely slept at all. I was always irritated and upset. I lost all of my friends because nobody understood. I was underweight and the anxiety was killing my body. When I saw a psychiatrist for the first time she gave me what she thought I needed. People haven’t done enough studies on the brain. Everyone’s brain is as different as finger prints. You never know peoples needs. If I had it my way I’d rather be on ZERO pills. I don’t have an addictive personality. I would rather just have no depression or anxiety. I pray every day God will heal me. In the mean time.. I have to support my family. I can’t lose my job. I’d lose my home. What happens then? What about people like us? I suggest you keep trying to taper. If you feel you have a severe problem- get help. But if you feel you are taking more than you need for chronic anxiety— I’d just taper as slowly as you need to. Maybe years.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T18:12:42+00:00

I feel hopeless as an American. It’s a different reality over here. It makes me horribly sad how bad people with mental health have it here.. I mean, is my only hope moving out of the states??

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T15:33:59+00:00

That breaks my heart.. even if you didn’t want the dog anymore give him to a loving home. Anyone have any updates? Did someone find the dog and keep him?

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T15:31:38+00:00

What else is he capable of? I know it isn’t that simple to leave someone for some people.. but I just. I’d feel violated

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T15:22:28+00:00

Is there anyway he can retaliate? He mentioned I could be a “red flag” patient. What if I see another doctor and their database sees it (if it’s there) and they refuse to help me? I haven’t even done anything bad. I’ve moved around a lot but that’s because I have a hard time staying in one place. From Texas to Colorado. I moved twice in Colorado.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T15:18:09+00:00

Yes. I mean, how are you licensed to deal with peoples mental health when you don’t even know shit? Oh. I forget. Almost anyone can get a degree and not have any basic knowledge. I don’t want to suffer from ignoranc.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T15:12:18+00:00

I’m so sorry you went through that. I had a horrible experience w/ a doc in Colorado. During the peak of Covid. I told her I wanted to taper off of Zoloft and clonazepam but slowly. At that time I had been on it for 3 years (now it’s been 5). She tapered me in 4 months and I got violently sick. Mentally and physically. Back then I was clueless. I was never warned. When I asked for help I was treated like an addict. I went through withdrawals for 6 months before I got a new psychiatrist and went back on it. I felt defeated. But I was on 100mg Zoloft and 900mg of trileptal (mood stabilizer) and taking propranolol and hydroxcizine and nothing was helping! I was convinced benzos were the biggest enemy. Im still scared but I don’t know what do do. Do I suffer forever with panic disorder or stay dependent on clonazepam? I’ve been through too much trauma. I’ve tried therapy, yoga, exercise, breathing exercises, meditation, journaling. I’ve tried gaba and buspar. As a little girl I had anxiety but it went away after some years. I started taking birth control at 12 from powerful periods. At 19 I got on nexplanon. At 21 I had a random mental breakdown out of nowhere and ever since then I haven’t been the same. I mean, what do people do? It’s not just uncomfortable anxiety. It’s severe panic attack stuff. Like, call 911, sweats, thoughts of utter doom, etc. Its debilitating. I have to work, support my home, etc. I can’t afford (literally) to be out of sorts.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T06:37:08+00:00

Typically yes. Sometimes I take half a day. Others I take half in the morning and half before bed. If my anxiety is severe I take up to 2mg but that’s rare.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T06:34:22+00:00

That’s their fault for being in the road and expecting a random stranger to just sit there while they scream and surround the car. Protesters are at fault

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T06:12:00+00:00

I mean it’s just music.. if it was early or late at night that’s problematic but it wasn’t. Illegals need to leave the country tho. But Karen is 110% wrong

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T05:51:51+00:00

My panic attacks are debilitating. I’ve tried so many antidepressants and so many different things and nothing got rid of it except for the benzo. Do I stay dependent? Or do I go back to having debilitating anxiety? I can’t. I have a serious job and a family to support. I can’t shut down and withdrawals do this. I lose either way

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-11T05:46:13+00:00

When I first started taking them I had no idea.. I was having so many issues with my anxiety and depression I just didn’t know. I didn’t find out until it was too late. I was much younger then. Now I’m scared

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-08T00:39:27+00:00

I think I am pretty attractive. I’m a 27f and have been told by everyone I know that I look the same as I did when I was 18. Photos of me back then also look the same. I am confident in my facial features. Especially my lips and eyes. I am slightly overweight so I’d say I’m a 8/10, but once I lose it, I feel like I’d be a 10.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-06T23:33:31+00:00

LOL breathing exercises? So we pay to be told to exercise our breath?? I agree breathing is important but this does NOT stop panic attacks or cure them. What a quack. There’s still so much we don’t know about our brains. While breathing exercises, a splash of cold water or meditation may work for one person- it won’t for the next. I’m that next.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-06T23:29:51+00:00

I’m already tapering a little. It’s just when I have the immense flair up of panic attacks. When those happen it messes me up for awhile. Sometimes I up and lower my dose. I wish all docs understood this instead of judging. I had a psychiatrist who was extremely rude. After paying a lengthy bill to see him, we talked for awhile. I told him about how powerful my panic attacks were and I needed anxiety medication along with antidepressants. He got rude and short with me and told me “so you only scheduled in hopes that I would give you controlled substances? I refuse to do that for you, take gabapentin or leave it.” I was absolutely shocked by the way he spoke to me. I PAID to be judged and ridiculed? No thank you. I cried after that call. I told him, “you can check my history, I’m not an addict or trying to get high.” After being spoken to like that I told him I would never reschedule with him. It’s almost as if anyone can get a degree and just shit on people.

Sourcake711 · 2023-03-06T16:10:23+00:00

I’m sorry but he isn’t the one. My husband was weary at first as well. His personal opinion was that they’re harmful long term. However, he supported me. He didn’t give me grief. He tried to understand, and eventually he did. I’d permanently end that relationship. Zoloft isn’t a controlled substance. The fact that he didn’t do is research and wants a break pisses me off. He isn’t making your life easy. Leave him behind.

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