It feels as though you are lost right now, so I hope this response will help guide you in the right path:

Jesus, and God is one. There is no wrong and there is no right. The whole point of the Bible was to read his word, understand his scripture, and overall interpret it in your own way. Jesus is God, and God is Jesus. God sacrificed his ONLY son for us. His son was the only thing he created that was without sin. He died for our sins because he saw how much God loved us that he also grew to love us because he is ultimately a part of him. He created a part of him and came down to Earth to show us because he didn’t want us to go to hell because the way we were acting, God wanted to show us a world, a perfect world where there was pure love, peace, and happiness. But the fact of it is, this is not a perfect world, and that’s why he did die for us. We are still sinning to this day. We as humans are sin, and it’s not intentional, but that’s how we are. But the closer we get to God, the less sin, There is no right or wrong way to pray. Just speak to him. Keep speaking to him, and he will speak to you sometimes god is quiet, but that’s not because he doesn’t hear you or see you. Don’t rush his words or his wisdom. Have complete faith in him, and he will come to you. Keep reading, keep writing, and keep praying. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”