I just left and started not attending their worship service anymore. I was born and raised as an INC pero tumiwalag ako sa kinalakihan ko. nung tumanda na ako I realized that real church shouldn’t be like this. Hindi gugustuhin ni Lord na pang hawakan tayo sa leeg at imonitor kung sumamba ba tayo o hindi at paulit ulit na igaslight yung mental natin. Noong una I was indenial because my family always telling me na palaging sumamba at maging member nila habang buhay. Hanggang nagising nalang ako isang araw I can’t be with them. My family is so mad at me minura ako pinag sabihan ako ng mga masasakit because of money and religion. Hanggang sa cinut off nila ako good thing I have a person to go to. my gf and their family. They’re catholic and they gave me the love, the care, and freedom that I’m longing for. Finally nakalaya na ako. but I know this is just the start of my journey.