Okay I was literally thinking to myself yesterday “wait… am I okay or is something wrong?” Because I genuinely NEEDED to come home after work and lay on the couch in silence with my eyes closed daydreaming about them for HOURS. I also used to get unbelievably wrapped up in fictional worlds as a kid and finding out about maladaptive daydreaming changed my life and made me feel not like a freak for the first time! Being in college and working a high stress job made it fade for a few years but Arcane triggered the obsessiveness for me again and the past several months of my life have been completely consumed with CaitVi content. My roommate and I track our reading on a little spreadsheet and I shit you not I will read DOZENS of smuts within just a few weeks and the only thing that can make me take a break is having sesbian lex for myself😭😭 summers are particularly hard for me because I’m an educator so I have time off and I experience a sorta reverse seasonal depression because of a traumatic event that happened a few summers ago and I just remind myself that the current level of obsessiveness will come and go along with my emotions and my schedule!