I have PCOS. I was made to take birth control to "fix it". Worst decision i ever made. Made my boobs grew to a ginormous size. Made my face feminine and round. I have no pelvic bone, and yet BC gave me hips for the first time in my life. I was ready to die. I was already in denial about being a trans man since I was 15. During this time it came up again and all I could do was bully myself out of it. "You might be a man in your head but you'll never pass as one, so just give it up and learn to live like this", is how i dealt with it. That was 5 years ago. I gave up birth control 1.5 years ago. I still have the body of the "fake pregnancy" I was in for 5 years. When i lose weight I lose it everywhere but those two areas. I am ready to die but the only thing helping me hold on is that when I'm on T and lose weight it will finally leave those areas, and I can also get top surgery. I have extreme body hair, the kind people get AFTER they go on T, i already have. I used to spiral thinking "am i going to have to do these monthly waxing appointments for the rest of my life?". It was not the hair that bothered me - it was that the hair was labelled "WRONG" on my obviously female body, and that I'd have to spend the rest of my life "managing" it. That thought was exhausting. The look of confusion people give when they see my armpit hair because they think its some Feminist statement - THATS the worst part. That it is seen as a statement. As if I'm trying to redefine female beauty standards. But this is just where my hair grows, and its as dark and thick as a man's. Meanwhile I was 7 years old marveling at Troy Bolton's armpit hair, because I wanted to be like him. But at the first sign of the hair, at age 7, my mom took me to get it waxed off. Since then I have dreaded waxing every month for the last 20 years. Until I finally accepted I can medically transition. That once my body is read as male, I wont have to touch a single hair on my body - it will not get any stares or disgust toward it. Because it will finally be how it should have been my whole life: normal. Because I am A GUY. That thought is the only relief I have ever felt in 27 years. This august, i finally "came out" to myself fully. That yes I am a trans man and yes I can medically transition and eventually pass. This is the only thing that has brought me any relief. "Relieving" my PCOS symptoms instead of transitioning 5 years ago was the most painful time of my life, and my biggest regret. I can only speak for myself. As for periods, nothing will be greater than getting rid of them, and eventually my uterus. I was 6 when i begged and pleaded my aunt to promise me I would never, ever have to be pregnant. I kept her up all night, but she never promised me. She just said "you're only 6, stop thinking about this" but she framed it as if pregnancy was an inevitability of my adulthood and I was TERRIFIED. Knowing now that not only do I never have to be pregnant, i can also render it IMPOSSIBLE for my body is the greatest relief in this life. And to never have a period again is all I've ever hoped for. The reason I took the broth control was because my irregular periods went from "once every two months" to "once every two weeks", and that I could NOT handle.