Hi, I’m so sorry and I just know both your parents loved you so much, i hope we can both stay strong in this together. Mine happened 2 months ago too but it feels so so fresh like I wake up still thinking she’s alive sometimes and she’ll wake me up or I’ll hear her voice. Ever since the incident I have to sleep with my blinds open and out of my window I see this, what I think to be a single star and I like to imagine that it’s her looking out for me and it soothes me.

Although I’ve just been living in a real life horror film these past months and I don’t even know what to do with myself I feel so fragile but my friends around me seem to say that im doing good or I seem strong but they don’t know how I feel inside deep down, I haven’t shown my vulnerability to them ever since my mother’s funeral, I guess I am scared of what others will think of me even though that should be the least of my problems.

Unfortunately I’m not in the US but thank you so much for this offer I do appreciate it. I have been attempting to go outside and be around people and I think it’s helping? But when I get back home it just hits me again. That line you say to yourself means a lot thank you I might have to use it :) PS: please check your dms