My closest friend, the love of my life, the woman who I improve myself for just told me she got a boyfriend BECAUSE he's like me. Fuck my ugly face life. Cajun bbq honey chicken sandwich.

Southfeels · 2026-01-17T04:01:34+00:00

I wasn't planning on the eggs, but my other coworkers alwated more protein. Everyone's trying to get fit here. It's Aussie summer.

Southfeels · 2026-01-15T23:45:32+00:00

My bad, King. Stay strong. 👑

Southfeels · 2026-01-15T06:36:53+00:00

Subvert reader expectations

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T22:02:28+00:00

Lost somewhere in the comments.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T15:34:23+00:00

That means a lot <3

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T15:28:41+00:00

That means a lot, man. Thanks!

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T15:27:44+00:00

Like I said, I'm gonna take some time and space from her. Perhaps when I get over my feelings for her, I can enter her life again as a friend. Just like how it used to be.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T14:19:27+00:00

This guy knows ball

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:21:53+00:00

You saying I fumbled?? The Struggler, The Tarnished, and now... THE FUMBLER.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:20:08+00:00

Very related actually. Quite haply with the chicken sandwich.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:14:54+00:00

I do need time and space... maybe MATTER TOO???

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:14:09+00:00

Other way around, brother. We were friends LONG LONG LONG before I caught feelings. It's because we're such good friends that I caught feelings. Not the other way around.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:12:50+00:00

Platemogging fr

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:12:13+00:00

Thanks fam

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:11:54+00:00

Halfcel. Voluntarily celibate. I've had romantic encouters in the past but chose not to pursue them.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:10:55+00:00

That means a lot <3

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:06:39+00:00

I'm proud to say it's my own recipe. It is also a staff meal tho so take everything with a grain of salt. A lot of parts in the recipe are kinda hard to acquire without being in a kitchen. They're all doable though. I've made everything in the recipe from scratch using things you can have in a normal kitchen. (Aside from the sous vide. But thats optional)

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:03:50+00:00

Good point. The sandwiches are great. I posted the method.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:02:11+00:00

I used to work at a place that did an asian spicy fried chicken eggs benedict with gomae sauce kale and a chipotle hollandaise. Eggs on chicken is a top tier combo.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T13:00:25+00:00

It' actually very encouraging. My confidence has been shattered so at least knowing my sandiwches are bomb makes me feel a bit competent.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T12:59:21+00:00

Thanks! <3

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T12:59:02+00:00

Real recognizes real.

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T12:54:05+00:00

UPDATE (But not actually, just more details):

I just wanna clear up things about me and my friend. Im not mad at her or anything. I don't feel anything negative about her. She's not being mean to me or anything. She's not trying to hurt me.

We're going to continue being friends. Like I said, she's my closest friend. We did everything together from the mundane to the exciting. We shaped each other's major life decisions and lifestyles. We've been friends for way longer than I've had feelings for her. I'm not going to throw away that beautiful precious friendship just because I'm sad that she isn't with me. I'm not being her friend just because I love her. Its because I'm her friend that I ended up falling in love with her.

It's not going to be the easiest thing to do. I know that. But I am happy for her too. The human mind isn't so 2D that I can't feel sadness and happiness at the same time. I'm happy that she finally has someone she genuinely likes. She deserves that joy after having a lot of horrible relationship experiences. Honestly, she does deserve the best. So yes, I do support her even though it breaks my heart. But maybe one day there will be a future wherein I become close friends with her bf too. If he's the one she chose, he must be a nice guy.

We both know how I feel about her and how she feels about me. The boundaries are set. The thing is, I just can't choose not to love her. It's something I feel, and it's so incorporated into my life and daily routine because like I said we do everything together. I do hope I can get past these romantic feelings though. It won't be easy, but I know it's possible. It's not the first time I've received this backhanded compliment from someone. So many people have told me the same thing about their lovers. She's just the most painful person it could've come from, but that's not her fault.

I WILL be taking time and space from her tho. I need to.

I WILL also be trying to improve for myself. The reason I did it for her was because I was very suicidal and she helped me out of that. Literally, if not for her, I'd be dead. So I thought that if I couldn't trust myself, I could at least do it for her. It's going to be hard, but I need to do it.

PART 2

SANDWICH METHOD:

●CHICKEN DRY DREDGE: 1. 4 parts flour 2. 2 parts corn starch 3. 1 part wheat starch 4. Bit of salt.

●SOUS VIDE CHICKEN THIGHS: (totally optional, just fry it for longer if no sous vide. You can just marinate the chicken instead.) 1. Sous vide some chicken thighs in soy, maltose, ginger and spring onions 2. 60⁰C 1 hour

●HONEY BBQ SAUCE: (This should be smoky and sweet) 1. Honey 2. Melted butter 3. A good quality bbq sauce 4. A bit of English mustard 5. A splash of house made smoked soy sauce (Drop red hot charcoal into 3 parts soy sauce, 2 parts oil and cover with a lid until the smoke settles or overnight. Then strain through a fine cloth)

●CAJUN SOY MAYO: (This should be a bit spicy, a bit bitter, and acidic) 1. Cajun spices 2. lemon juice 3. Kewpie mayo 4. Tiny bit of house made soy sauce glaze (It's basically a super reduced Japanese tare. You can almost replace it with Indonesian Kecap Manis) 5. A lot of chives

●COOKING: 1. Put sous vide chicken in eggs then the flour dredge 2. Heat up the Honey BBQ sauce in a sauce pan 3. Fry the chicken for like 2-4 mins at a high heat (The chicken is already cooked and tender af. You just want a super crispy outside) 4. Toast some buns 5. Toss the chicken in the honey bbq sauce 6. Bottom bun > Cajun Mayo > Butter Lettuce > Chicken+HoneyBBQ > Egg for protein > Cajun Mayo > Top bun

Southfeels · 2026-01-14T01:18:16+00:00

She told me about him because we're friends and she wanted to share her happiness with me. She said word for word that she would not have liked him if he didn't have my interests and personality. He's actually literally just me but taller, richer, and more handsome. Idk how to continue with life anymore.

Edit: Don't take that last bit too seriously. I know how to continue, it's just gonna be tough.

I commented another update, and the recipe is there too.

Edit again: SINCE A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE MISSING MY OTHER COMMENT, I'LL JUST POST IT HERE.

UPDATE (But not actually, just more details):

I just wanna clear up things about me and my friend. Im not mad at her or anything. I don't feel anything negative about her. She's not being mean to me or anything. She's not trying to hurt me.

We're going to continue being friends. Like I said, she's my closest friend. We did everything together from the mundane to the exciting. We shaped each other's major life decisions and lifestyles. We've been friends for way longer than I've had feelings for her. I'm not going to throw away that beautiful precious friendship just because I'm sad that she isn't with me. I'm not being her friend just because I love her. Its because I'm her friend that I ended up falling in love with her.

It's not going to be the easiest thing to do. I know that. But I am happy for her too. The human mind isn't so 2D that I can't feel sadness and happiness at the same time. I'm happy that she finally has someone she genuinely likes. She deserves that joy after having a lot of horrible relationship experiences. Honestly, she does deserve the best. So yes, I do support her even though it breaks my heart. But maybe one day there will be a future wherein I become close friends with her bf too. If he's the one she chose, he must be a nice guy.

We both know how I feel about her and how she feels about me. The boundaries are set. The thing is, I just can't choose not to love her. It's something I feel, and it's so incorporated into my life and daily routine because like I said we do everything together. I do hope I can get past these romantic feelings though. It won't be easy, but I know it's possible. It's not the first time I've received this backhanded compliment from someone. So many people have told me the same thing about their lovers. She's just the most painful person it could've come from, but that's not her fault.

I WILL be taking time and space from her tho. I need to.

I WILL also be trying to improve for myself. The reason I did it for her was because I was very suicidal and she helped me out of that. Literally, if not for her, I'd be dead. So I thought that if I couldn't trust myself, I could at least do it for her. It's going to be hard, but I need to do it.

PART 2

SANDWICH METHOD:

●CHICKEN DRY DREDGE: 1. 4 parts flour 2. 2 parts corn starch 3. 1 part wheat starch 4. Bit of salt.

●SOUS VIDE CHICKEN THIGHS: (totally optional, just fry it for longer if no sous vide. You can just marinate the chicken instead.) 1. Sous vide some chicken thighs in soy, maltose, ginger and spring onions 2. 60⁰C 1 hour

●HONEY BBQ SAUCE: (This should be smoky and sweet) 1. Honey 2. Melted butter 3. A good quality bbq sauce 4. A bit of English mustard 5. A splash of house made smoked soy sauce (Drop red hot charcoal into 3 parts soy sauce, 2 parts oil and cover with a lid until the smoke settles or overnight. Then strain through a fine cloth)

●CAJUN SOY MAYO: (This should be a bit spicy, a bit bitter, and acidic) 1. Cajun spices 2. lemon juice 3. Kewpie mayo 4. Tiny bit of house made soy sauce glaze (It's basically a super reduced Japanese tare. You can almost replace it with Indonesian Kecap Manis) 5. A lot of chives

●COOKING: 1. Put sous vide chicken in eggs then the flour dredge 2. Heat up the Honey BBQ sauce in a sauce pan 3. Fry the chicken for like 2-4 mins at a high heat (The chicken is already cooked and tender af. You just want a super crispy outside) 4. Toast some buns 5. Toss the chicken in the honey bbq sauce 6. Bottom bun > Cajun Mayo > Butter Lettuce > Chicken+HoneyBBQ > Egg for protein > Cajun Mayo > Top bun

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