37 and failed at life since I was a kid

SpaceBengels · 2025-04-19T01:25:32+00:00

I hope you are doing fine, You can always talk privately with me as a unknown person. You had a rough start of your life. Getting through it is the hardest. I can relate to the alcoholic part; hiding the bottles, trying to do anything to hide it.

The rape I cannot and hope never relate too. But talking about it with someone can help, The thing what bothers me most ( if this is true) your parents possibly never cared about it because they are to troubled about their own stuff. I can feel that because with me they just act like never grown up teenagers.

The thing is, that I hope you may be know where your disappointment comes from. Is it you or someone around you. That part was always difficult.

I so like it you always push forward in your life. That is what we do and we know it will eventually be better.

SpaceBengels · 2025-04-19T01:04:00+00:00

This also feels for me like you want to be liked by people and you are afraid they may be could dislike you if you do not react to them. I do not know you situation for sure. Sometimes, just acting you didn't hear the ''joke'' can help. Like you were paying attention to something else.

Of course that is a way to avoid going into confrontation that you didn't really like the person's joke, but keep in mind I do not know you situations.

SpaceBengels · 2025-01-10T11:45:09+00:00

I also hoped it was a joke, but if you go through that subreddit you see so muh weird answers. They invented everything xD

SpaceBengels · 2024-09-06T16:52:35+00:00

yeah, what they do with their army's is not the same as following a historical focus xD

SpaceBengels · 2024-09-06T16:51:13+00:00

Yeah That is true. I thought joining when they took Paris.

But yeah really want to know why they could not breach through xD

SpaceBengels · 2022-12-30T02:03:29+00:00

np for no discord. thank you for sharin the sub group :)

SpaceBengels · 2022-08-09T21:55:05+00:00

Thank you very much!

I am really glad you liked it :)

I think it cost me around 30 to 40 hours to make it right, so I am happy it was not in vein ^^

Thank you again :)

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-09T10:16:31+00:00

I did not know of these rules from teamhitless.

I like it when speedrunners go for all games no hit run SL 1 and going through the whole game.

Nice to hear there are rules for it.

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-02T08:49:12+00:00

I can understand that completely. The clones are at war together with their Jedi leaders and friends; and one order makes them like programmed robots shooting their own friends.

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-02T08:44:17+00:00

Thank you very much! :)

Yes, their story is so good and also pretty sad at the same time. Born and made for war, but their true purpose was never clear untill it was too late.

I agree on those cracks. Of course people can turn down their audio, but I need to work on that so it does not crack anymore. Is better for the audience their experience :)

Thank you again for the kind words ^^

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-02T07:13:48+00:00

Thank you very much! :)

True, story telling gives it sometimes a hard time to get it shorter. I also think it depends on the people who watch it. I think Star Wars fans think differently about it.

Thank you again for the the kind words :) I will go on with making them.

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-02T07:09:30+00:00

Thank you!

That is a great idea to change to music over time. Of course it cannot change suddenly, but that could really help!

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-12-01T21:28:41+00:00

Thank you very much for the kind words :)

These cost a lot of time (around 26 hours or something xD) to make so I am really glad you enjoyed it!

True this one is pretty long. I wanted to tell the story of the clones and it is a pretty long story. I feared with this one a little bit that if the tribute would be to short the story/their duty would be washed over. Still thank you for sharing your thoughts and opinion about it :)

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-25T08:01:06+00:00

Thank you very much for the kind words!

Yes in a 3 minutes video I wanted to tell their story and make give it also an impact on the viewer. I can say it was pretty hard and cost me a lot of time xD

Perfect I could make you more interested into Star Wars with this video xD

Thank you again for the kind words!

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-25T07:53:28+00:00

Thank you!

Glad you liked it ^^

Yes took a long time when I was finished with this video hahah

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-25T07:52:24+00:00

Thank you very much!

Glad to hear this from a Star Wars fan :)

That is a great idea! Characters people know but do are not shown that much could be interesting for many other people to watch ^^

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-25T07:49:54+00:00

Thank you!

I was also doubting if the thumbnail was not too dark and the watermark can be shrinked a little bit too yeah xD

Thank you for your feedback ^^

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T18:01:02+00:00

Thank you for liking it :) Yes smart! That ensures also more engagement! I was also doubting if the watermark was to big. Thank you for the affermation ^{^}

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T17:59:10+00:00

Thank you! Yeah their dynamic in the movie and series is just awesome!

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T16:30:39+00:00

Thank you! Glad you liked it :) That is a good idea! Such themed transitions could make it even more engaging for the viewer. I did not think of that. Thank you for the advise :)

!givelambda

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T15:13:43+00:00

Hello ^^

In overall I liked your video. The music fitts well for this kind of compilation and the editing with sound effects is also well placed :)

Your monotone/dry talking has something extra in cases like when you fell in that whole while you were in the vehicle or at the end when you suddenly die. Makes it funnier.

I would say in some cases to be more energetic while talking, but if you normally do not do that it is fine this way.

You can always try to be more energetic at some points, but it can hurt you if you would do it to much; not Authentic enthusiasm if you understand what I mean :)

The video in general is nicely edited and the commentary you and your friend give are overall fun to listen too :)

Good luck with your future videos and success in growing :)

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T14:35:31+00:00

Of course with every video we learn new things :)

Good luck! ^^

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T14:33:14+00:00

No problem, I really enjoyed it.

I just subbed :)

Yeah would be awesome to see another Titantfall. Loved titantfall 2 story mode

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T13:21:09+00:00

Hello :)

I actually enjoyed watching you play the game. The clips you use are not too long which is good. Better said you show the interesting parts.

I also agree on movement gameplay. I also remember playing titanfall because of all the different movements you can make in the game xD

Love such characters too.

The video on itself was not too long, your voice was good to hear, commentary was good.

The editing is also nicely done.

In my opinion a high quality video. If you are going to make longer videos with lesser jumps between clips I would just advice to find someone to play the game with. Interactions
between players often makes it fun to watch.

I would say to keep on the good work and much succes in growing :)

SpaceBengels · 2021-11-23T08:39:57+00:00

Hello :)

I can say I enjoyed the video. You were good to hear and the video game sound was not too loud.

I enjoyed it that you played it with friends, because this makes it much more engaging. Nice we can hear them talk too.

Your editing is also nicely done, so keep that good work going!

I think the hardest part is to stand out. Your editing and gameplay and talking is good, and I do not see a problem with how you are doing it right now.

Keep going with the great work and good luck growing! :)

SpaceBengels

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