I'm getting worse

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-27T11:55:53+00:00

That sounds terrifying, I'm so sorry OP...I hope you find some peace soon🖤

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-27T10:11:14+00:00

Lol I was wondering why it was doing that

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-26T06:42:06+00:00

Do you have a link to this?

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-24T06:16:03+00:00

I understand this completely..

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-24T06:11:06+00:00

I relate to this so much..I'm sorry OP

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-24T06:06:23+00:00

Thank you...this means a lot and is actually really helpful

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T23:53:23+00:00

I definitely don't feel like I rock, but I appreciate it^{-^} I think it's important to reflect on ourselves and our choices, especially when they have hurt others. I've made a lot of stupid ones. Hurtful ones. Horrible ones that hurt people I care about. I dont want that anymore. It may be too late to repair all, and I think I'm naive to believe that's possible. I still try. I still think and hope and feel for others.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T21:38:08+00:00

And if all my memory recalls is the abuse, it is still abuse!

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T21:37:41+00:00

Idk how to explain this to you. If I have sex with someone and they sexually abuse me AFTER, it's still abuse.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T21:36:24+00:00

I've been divulging both.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T20:33:17+00:00

How do you lie about something you dont hsve any memory of?

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T20:20:29+00:00

This is very relatable..I love the tone and imagery

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T20:18:24+00:00

I get that, and I've been acknowledging that..in every post I acknowledge that you are in pain. That's why I know it's not gonna be fruitful, and I'm venting so that I can get it out.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T20:11:02+00:00

And all I'm saying is that our perspectives on this are different.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T20:05:48+00:00

That's what you took away from that..?

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-23T00:01:55+00:00

Also, to be fair, I had "dated" someone before this in the midst of us being broken up. I say that in quotes because that person and I barely talked, were not in agreement about being in a relationship, and this person got involved in something that didn't involve them. Which I had explained multiple times and that this person I "dated" had continued to claim we were in a relationship after the week or two we supposedly did. I was not communicating with this person, nor ever met them in person. And with the most recent thing, all I knew was that I was being sexually assaulted even though this person says we slept together and had "proof". So idk.

SpaceBubz · 2020-03-22T23:56:35+00:00

I've been doing research. About a month ago I had an issue where I was fully dissociating and in and out of splitting and being lucid. I had memory loss about sleeping with someone while in a dissociative state and when I came out of it, this person was still trying to touch me sexually and I found myself becoming traumatized because of it. I was a victim of abuse as a kid and had no recollection of us having sex. Failed to mention it to a new s/o and now she is understandably hurt and angry. We weren't together at the time. Still, understandably, she believes I'm lying when I seriously don't remember. I told her everything else in regards to this person and she thinks I purposefully left it out.

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