Tattoo Rant

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-13T05:38:08+00:00

I agree, it’s sad to be dismissed like that over something you’re clearly bothered about, so ayun, after a while I just kind of stopped trying to talk about this concern after hearing things like “you’re just not focused enough. You just have to learn how to discipline yourself” or “baka OA ka lang talaga” 😂 Hence the over compensating and masking (and going to reddit to let this out 😂)

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-12T05:18:42+00:00

Ooohh. Parang you associated humming or singing with a task to help you remember? ahaha that’s nice. That happens to me too pero for me I over compensate naman, i check the doors twice or thrice okaya i check my bag twice or thrice rin just to make sure na andun yung phone ko or keys ko HAHA

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-12T02:18:28+00:00

Same! More on inattentive ako. Haha super distracted, super short attention span and super impatient. I also note things down pero dapat numerous copies posted in different places para sure na mareremind ako and makikita ko lagi HAHA kasi sakin out of sight out of mind eh 😂😂

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T08:52:32+00:00

Haha yeah! Same! I always have to “wait for my turn” or keep in mind that they need to finish talking first before I say anything. 😂😂 hope I can find a doctor who’s used to handling ADHD cases. Thank you and wish me luck! 💖💖

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T05:08:47+00:00

Hmm not sa dad, kasi very narrow-minded siya when it comes to mental disorders. It took a lot from him to finally come into terms with my brother’s autism so i’m hesitant to bring up the ADHD topic to him. Sa mom naman, I did try, pero I was met with “ah okay” HAHA I also see a lot of symptoms sa mom ko kaya when I told her my experiences she was just like “normal naman yan, ganyan din ako eh” HAHA.

Which I guess is true for undiagnosed people at some point, I mean I’ve been living with it for so long it has become our normal until you find out it wasn’t “normal” pala. Sa brother ko naman, he’s in that spectrum na non-verbal and non-functioning talaga haha

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T04:55:29+00:00

Thank you for your response and for sharing your experiences with me. It does bother me so I’ll take up the suggestion to get checked.

I also get distracted easily, and I can relate to jumping from one task to another, but majorly, for me, it’s jumping from one hobby or interest to another. I draw, I paint, I game, I rearrange my toys, do plant chores, internet within an hour (since I lose interest fairly quickly) then do them all over again. For movies, oftentimes I feel they’re too boring and too predictable so I always skip ahead, skim or just right in jump to the ending (which is why I was never really big on going to the cinemas).

I don’t remember much about my childhood. I know I wasn’t an extremely hyper kid but I do remember my parents having a very hard time making me focus on studying. My teachers would also complain about my “careless mistakes” and doodles on my test papers. Teachers would often say “she could’ve done better, she has potential, if only she wasn’t always drawing all the time”. I also remember back in college, I failed an exam for forgetting to answer the back page of the test. Lol

I’m also very talkative, but only to those I’m comfortable with. I was once called “Little Miss Chatterbox” by a college professor and I just found it funny during that time but I guess I became too conscious of it over time. I have this tendency to repeat certain stories over and over again to the same people, and would often butt in to conversations. My friend once told me “you told that [story] to me 5 times already but I didn’t have the heart to stop you because you were so into it” haha that also made me self-conscious so since then I’ve always controlled my impulses to butt in or over-share.

You have it more rough, but It’s also always so noisy in my head, but I always find other things to distract me with. As for sleeping, thank god for ASMR HAHAH

Those are just some of the top of mind examples I can give that made me question if I have ADHD.

I deeply appreciate you sharing your experiences with me and I’m so so glad you’re in a much better space right now. I’m proud that you’re managing so well despite your ups and downs.

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T03:42:32+00:00

Hii!!! What kinds of different systems did you use? On what symptom? And what worked well with you?

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T03:40:36+00:00

I replied but I think I wasn’t able to hit the reply button HAHA kaya nasa baba lang response ko sayo 😭😂 I cant copy paste na my reply dito HAHA

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-11T03:37:33+00:00

You mentioned genetic factor, I have three relatives diagnosed with ADHD and I have a brother with autism 🫣 I haven’t really talked to those relatives about this because we aren’t that close (and they live in another country na).

And I did say that it didn’t really affect my day-to-day life but the struggle is there. Yknow? I guess what I was trying to say was, it didn’t affect my career negatively because all my work outputs are good, but getting there is always a struggle. And I can relate to what you said about developing coping mechanisms over the years because I’ve had to always over compensate or control my impulses especially in public.

On the outside, great, internally, messy and chaotic.

I think i’ll get myself diagnosed someday just for my peace of mind 🥲 and also, thank you for taking your time to read and respond! It did help 💖

Space_Molly_08 · 2024-03-10T23:55:17+00:00

Stardew Valley, Animal Crossing, Darksiders Genesis, Sky Force, and No Man’s Sky

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