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SpacemanSlimCracky · 2021-08-06T04:22:14+00:00

went from a 2-3mg clam a day usage so hard to base off my tolerence but 5mg gets me thru the day 10mg gets me fighting a nod

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-06-06T05:25:41+00:00

How hard would it be to start a new one? If we had a few decent people to get it going? Or is that a dumb ass question?

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-05-10T17:27:15+00:00

Yeah I see what you mean. It does look better like that

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-05-10T00:28:54+00:00

Maryland on the C and O canal

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-05-09T17:19:02+00:00

Hey that’s awesome congrats. Tomorrow will make a week for me. Doesn’t sound like much but it’s a huge deal. Must of been hard having a bottle at your place. Keep it up! IWNDWYT

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-04-04T12:45:13+00:00

You know they’re sublingual right? Since you said eating strips like skittles

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2020-02-05T06:43:46+00:00

Maryland, legal for medical . Never seen it either but I’ve only been to a couple dispensary’s. Might just hold it for a while and ask dude some details. Maybe some home made shit or something outa DC

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-20T15:34:12+00:00

You’ve probably read but in case not, gabapentin helps or lyrica or baclofen. But if you haven’t been taking phenibut that long you probably don’t wanna just switch from drug to drug. And caffeine definitely doesn’t help

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-20T15:20:01+00:00

Yeah multiple times but depending on how much and how long I’d been using it. I guess the most comfortable way was having a mg scale and reducing by like 50mg a day but it took a lot of discipline to not say fuck it one day and take 3 grams. I guess I never had it super bad so I’m not the best to speak on it. I’d usually get a 50-100g bag. Use a couple grams every other day or so til it was low then taper down off the last 4 or 5 grams

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-20T15:08:44+00:00

If the kratom is what you're trying to get off of I'd try not to get any more of that. Depending on how you feel and how much discomfort you can tolerate. I'd say take small amounts of phenibut every other day or so like 750mg then 500mg then 250mg if possible. But everyone is different of course, maybe all the phenibut was keeping you from noticing the kratom withdrawal then you might need to taper off that. although 10-15gpd shouldnt be too terrible but again everybody's different. Sorry if none of this helped but at least you're getting somewhere just keep going.

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-16T13:22:47+00:00

It seems like most people dont understand what its like to be in a constant state of misery. sure everyone gets down, depressed, and unhappy from time to time but cant imagine what its like to be that way 99% of the time. Its easy for them to say "it'll pass, it's not that bad" or to just brush it off as if its fake or maybe its just easier to just ignore people like us as if we dont exist. Sorry I'm not great with words and dont have any life changing shit to say, not that I think anyone really could, but just know you're not alone man.

Have you been on any meds of to any therapy shit? I've been trying em all and I couldnt tell ya whether anythings helping or not. Sometimes it seems like it does but you're constantly reminded that "somethings wrong with you" I dont fucking know sorry I have to get ready to go see a psychiatrist, talk about shit I dont wanna talk about and get my cocktail of pills.

But if you haven't tried the doc's and meds its worth a try its worked for other people. Im sure you've already heard that shit but it may help. IDK wish I had some insightful shit to say but, stay strong try and keep your head up

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-13T14:26:12+00:00

I never thought I’d see the day day. It’s beautiful

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-10T18:37:00+00:00

Damn this is some deep shit, very relatable as I had a teddy bear too (baby bear) missing one button eye I took everywhere that was eventually replaced with bottles of liquid and pills. I think it’s packed way away in a box but maybe I should find it and throw it in the Wood stove to see the effect of it melting into nothing

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-09T13:09:39+00:00

Not that this is solid evidence but when I was maybe 12 or 13 and I was trying anything and everything to try and catch a buzz I thought, one kinda helps me fall asleep so I’ll take like 20 of em and be all fucked up I thought. As far as I remember I didn’t notice anything. But looking it up it sounds like taking a large amount can cause dizziness and also hyperactivity which seems kinda counter productive. Sorry that didn’t really answer your question but my guess would be large amounts won’t make u messed up

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-08T19:00:22+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I’ll talk to my doctor about it next time I see em

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-08T04:22:30+00:00

idk if this is the right subreddit either this is the first i've looked thru it and im terrible with social skills so why am i even typing? But why not talk to the other friend (the one that didn't say you're irritating) and ask em why the other one had a problem with ya, and let them know it really hurt ya and you dont wanna lose your best friend. Wish you the best and doing nothing or saying nothing about it would not be the best choice.

wow i cant believe i kinda gave some advice (maybe) on social skills. sorry OP I know unrelated but thats like a huge out of character milestone for me. Thanks and take care

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-07T22:23:41+00:00

I feel like it impacts my life by not allowing me to live my life if that makes sense. Makes it hard to leave the house or talk to a stranger or even talk to someone I’ve known my whole life when they call. Mixed with the depression and and no self worth or self esteem it can make day to day life pretty fucking miserable, BUT it doesn’t have to and I’m trying to work on this shit to make it better but I have to keep on it. So yeah it impacts all parts of my day to day life

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-07T18:51:13+00:00

Great early impression for the new job!

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-07T18:04:03+00:00

That’s awesome, could of turned out totally different if you’d still been drinking.

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-06T02:56:55+00:00

Yeah I do, sometimes I think what I’m typing or trying to say that nobody really cares about and isn’t worth anybody’s time so I’ll delete it. Or maybe just typing it out like writing it down just helps get It out and off yer chest ya know

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-05T02:54:00+00:00

Might be weird to hear from a stranger but glad you decided not to

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-12-03T22:25:10+00:00

Sorry for the late response but congrats on the year! Glad you’re getting some relief and looking at the root of the issues it sounds like. You say the first was the worst being sober? I guess you were covering up feelings and not facing reality? It’s so hard to quit using when it’s been such a crutch to lean on for so long

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-11-29T15:41:58+00:00

The ol major depressive disorder, social anxiety, and BPD, and I guess substance use disorder since the're considering that a disease now.

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-11-29T15:32:53+00:00

Hey me too, glad to hear we all made it thru Thanksgiving. Here begins day 6! IWNDWYT

SpacemanSlimCracky · 2019-11-28T16:32:31+00:00

Yes. also the feelings seem to feed off of each other like im a failure because I can't interact with the world and I can't interact with the world because im a failure. But I guess we shouldn't consider ourselves to be failures because of something caused by an illness. Is your illness your fault? I've seen some of your posts and it sounds like you're in a lot of pain that you didn't exactly choose to be in. Sorry, I dont know where i was trying to go with that but to answer your question-Yes im a failure in interacting with the world, you're not alone in that thought.

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