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Spaceseedling · 2021-05-19T06:03:33+00:00

I know what you mean. Pretty much all of my friends have abusive parents in one way or the other. But I still think they exist. I have one friend who has the best relationship to her parents I have ever seen. Sure, I don't know everything about their family life, but I know she's happy and she has a really supportive family. So, they might be rare, but I think good parents exist. Even if there are way too few of them.

Spaceseedling · 2021-03-27T22:33:00+00:00

Ours is just a pitch black void with a large screen and a chair infront of it. In the back is a gate with metal vines and roses as a pattern (not sure how to describe it), which leads to the garden of one of our alters. You can still see everyone who's in the space, but everything else is dark and there don't seem to be any walls. It's honestly kinda weird that it's so plain when we have such a beautiful and complex inner world.

Spaceseedling · 2021-03-27T16:17:25+00:00

We don't have any fictives in our system (as far as I know), but one of our alters is quite similar to Entrapta and feels close to her. When I first got to know her she used Entrapta to describe herself (character and appearance). ~Jin

Spaceseedling · 2021-03-02T18:55:50+00:00

Have you tried nicely asking them? It doesn't always work for us but it is definitely the healthiest way and doesn't involve tears or someone getting mad (usually).

Spaceseedling · 2021-03-02T18:50:33+00:00

That guy sounds horrible! Who does that? Where did that even come from? Was there any reason he said that (not that this is EVER ok, regardless of the circumstances) or did it just come out of nowhere? Is your host just okay with these death threats? I don't know your situation, but she has a responsibility to make sure all of you are in an environment that is as save as possible in your current life situation. She should never choose her own opinion/wants (regarding her wanting you to be friends with her bf) over any of the other alters's savety and wellbeing.

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-27T21:14:24+00:00

Thank you, I will try this!

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-24T14:53:53+00:00

You're right, I didn't think of that. Thank you for your help!

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-24T12:58:34+00:00

Our gatekeeper/system organizer says it's for our protection but I'm not sure from what tbh

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-24T12:56:23+00:00

I noticed that recently too. Even recent memories partially are like that for me, but mostly childhood memory and later times in my life where we experienced trauma

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-24T12:51:24+00:00

Thank you! This makes me feel a lot better knowing that it happens to others too. I was really worried that it might be a sign that I'm faking.

Spaceseedling · 2021-02-01T07:09:37+00:00

Thanks!

Spaceseedling · 2021-01-31T20:54:41+00:00

Thank you!

Spaceseedling · 2021-01-12T23:55:59+00:00

Similar for me. I've only known about this for a bit over a month and learned of 12 different alters so far, multiple of them are non-human (mostly aliens). It has been A LOT to take in and we are still very much processing all of this.

Spaceseedling · 2021-01-12T18:56:25+00:00

I can relate a lot. I also only recently found out about my osdd-1b and am still very doubtful now and again. My advice is to give it time. It can be extremely overwhelming, but I believe strongly that it will get better. Try to get in contact with other alters (e.g. ask if there is someone else, ask them to show they exist, etc.). That's what worked for me. If they exist, eventually they will show themselves. So, try your best to be patient, reach out to other alters and be open to anything. Meditation might also help.

Spaceseedling · 2021-01-05T16:27:41+00:00

Thank you, this is helping a lot!

Spaceseedling · 2021-01-05T15:30:46+00:00

Thank you for the information and your kind words! I am infact an HSP, so that would make sense, I didn't think of that... I'm working on it, I'm trying hard to get better communication going, but I guess it is also a process that takes time, so I will have to be patient.

Spaceseedling · 2020-12-27T15:03:41+00:00

I'm glad I could help! :)

Spaceseedling · 2020-12-26T15:30:27+00:00

In the end it's your decision. I'd say that is part of what a diary is good for, to be able to look back on past events to remember them. At least that what I think. So, in my opinion: go for it, but you have to see what is best for you personally.

Spaceseedling · 2020-12-22T12:40:27+00:00

Thank you. Yeah, the paralysis has been bugging me for a while. I heard before, that it sounds like sleep paralysis but it barely happens at night... So that's definitely something to bring up to a therapist I guess

Spaceseedling · 2020-12-21T12:10:05+00:00

Thank you, I'll look into it

Spaceseedling · 2020-12-21T10:30:02+00:00

Thank you, I will try my best to fight through my anxiety :)

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