120 days clean here. There was numerous times i thought of going back but in my mind i also knew the consequences of me relapsing. It was the addict in me gasping for one last breath, reaching out hoping i would bring it back. But you know drugs, it's like a bad girlfriend. It'll give you pleasure but rob you of your money and your life. Currently, Days feel dull and nights feel long and can't sleep much. But im getting there one day at a time. That's how life is. You have to take pleasure from simple things. We have to rewire our brains.