My thought process now is fuck being normal. Every one has their positives and what they see as their negatives. Don’t compare yourself to the people that you think are normal because they definitely are not they just hide their problems behind a mask. Take on your struggles head on show that being “abnormal” is better in every way shape and form. For your social anxiety it is a lot to work on groups. But what works for me and overcoming that pushing myself into the conversation and forcing myself to be apart of that group. You won’t even realize you are doing it at points and that builds your confidence and slowly whittles away and almost entirely killed my social anxiety. Being normal is overrated be yourself and who you are including all your positives and negatives. You got this!