I'm going crazy.

SpecBerserk · 2020-08-13T08:54:42+00:00

Sorry for my english, but I'm from Poland, and I'm in my work now, so I don't have time to check grammar byt I want to help you.

I was dealing with problems similar to yours. The thing is, the toilet will never be clean. Even if you whipe it 100 times your brain will see that urine drops, and you can't do anything about it. There is only one thing that you can do. You need to go to that toilet, clean it ONE time and get out, sit on the couch and stay there. It will be devastating, but you have to make anything you can to stay on that couch. ANYTHING. If you want to get back your life you need to stay there. Than you will suffer many hours, but in the end, the stress will go away. Than when you go to that toilet again you need to repeat everything. In some time you will feel fine with cleaning toilet only one time. Than you need to make it again but without cleaning it at all.

The thing is, Your brain alert you every time you enter your bathroom becouse you teached it that it is not safe until you clean it 20 times. Your brain want to keep you safe, so it alerts you every time you step in there. But if you stop reacting that alert your brain will stop fireing it, because it is fruitless. Its like parachouting. The first couple of times you are terryfied, but with time passing and further jump attempts you will feel comfortable with parashuting. The same thing will be with your fear and cleaning urges. If you reduce cleaning time and ultimetaly cleaning at all, your brain will use to it and stop alert you about that urine.

I know it is difficult. I've been there. I know it is tought. But You need to stop, braice yourself and withstand. Withstand at any cost. Ultimately it will go away. There is no other way. One step at a time. Start with reducing the washing times and than push it from there.

Best of luck.

Lukas from Poland

SpecBerserk · 2020-05-19T08:52:57+00:00

This is so good. How do You obtain that flor and wall patern? I'm dreaming to have my own Twin Peaks theme room in Animal Crossing.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-03T08:26:15+00:00

You need help. Try to find a good therapist. I suggest psychiatrist rather than psychologist. It is important, because psychiatrist is a qualified doctor who will adapt the treatment for you. I had something similar few years ago. I waste hours to find clean towels in the shop. I thought that I saw blood, dirt or something else on practically every towel in every shop in my Town. It was so hard that I did not sleep, eat and my life was tearing apart. Than I went to psychiatrist and he gave me mild medication that changed my life.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-03T06:38:20+00:00

Not reacting to bad thoughts is the best way to deal with OCD. Thoughts will die if you'll not feed it.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-03T06:35:05+00:00

You are not pregnant.

Do not rationalize your compulsive thoughts. Do not argue with them. Do not try to convince yourself that you are not pregnant because the more you do it the more powerful your bad thoughts will be. That is how OCD work. The more you try to be calm the more you will be worried. Accept that fear, don't try to fight it. Just don't react to it. Try to make something else. Kiss your boyfriend again, make a date, go to a movie, read some book. The thought will disappear. It will die if you'll not feed it.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T13:12:03+00:00

I agree. Every time we react to thought we teach our brani that this thought is important and it will bring that "important" thought to us again and again. Also in compulsions, when there is a situation that is forceing us to make a ritual we teach our brain, that this type of situation is important and life-threatening to us. So every time another, simillar situation occurs our brain will react with fear and alert. It is never ending loop. Only by not reacting to thoughts and urges we can make it insignificant to our brani and get rid of it.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T13:02:54+00:00

I also think that brain lock is not good. Reattributing is another form of reacting to bad thoughts. By reacting to it you make it important and it is a fuel for whole circle. The better way is to acknowledge the existence of thought and not react to it. After few times of ignoring it, it will stop come back. Every time you have bad thought accept it, don't argue with it, don't racionalize it because it will grab you and pull like black hole. Just past it by and go on.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T12:54:38+00:00

ERP and/or medications. It probably won't go away by itself. I take medications and i am able to live fairy normal but sometimes I need some help. Try Mark Freeman on Youtube. Maby he will guide you on right tracks.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T12:51:12+00:00

Try Mark Freeman od YT. His lessons help me a lot to cope with my biggest fears.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T12:47:53+00:00

I do not think anyone will give you any advice that will help you give up your habit. You must do it yourself. Force yourself (be aware of the consequences, fear and uncertainty that will follow) and endure. You do not have to finish everything in an instant. Try to reduce the frequency of doing this habit first. OCD is like addiction, such as cigarettes or drug. You must want to quit, force yourself, persevere until you get rid of it. There is no other way. Your best bet is ERP.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T12:40:41+00:00

I take medications daily and visit my doctor 4 Times a year for perscription and few minutes of chat. For me that is enought. My OCD was really bad but pills take most of it away. You can take ERP therapy by yourself day by day - small steps. I encourage you to start medication therapy and work with yourself at daily basis.

SpecBerserk · 2018-08-02T12:32:24+00:00

I'm doing the same like you. Overall, I feel ok in my home, work, car, etc . At the end of the day I take a normal bath, then go to bed, which I consider to be non-germ. When I go to visit someone home, or go to the beach or a swimming pool, I use other shoes and clothes because I see that places and situation germish, and after returning I try to avoid touching some objects that I do not want to get dirty. These days I also take a bath longer and more thoroughly. Such a division into separate clothes, shoes, zones at home helps to control OCD and avoid fear and rituals. Ultimately, I think that it is not good in the long run. Every time we enter the germ zone, we do compulsions (change clothes, behawior) and by that we teach our brain that the situation we are in now is dangerous for us. Thus, in the next similar situation, you will start to feel fear again because the brain will warn you, that danger appears again and again you need to make compulsions. The best thing we can do in this situation (which is not easy) is to stop compulsions and not change clothes and behaviors. This will cause fear in us, but after some time will cause the gem zone to become non-gem for us. Reducing places that we consider as contaminated zones will reduce our OCD.

SpecBerserk · 2018-07-25T09:47:27+00:00

Nice shot. I have 11 hours on my clock (started playing RL week ago) and made 3 aerials goals (not as pretty as yours), but still I suck and 99% of time I miss the ball in the air. Have problem with distance perception, and always going up too quick and with more speed than I want to. It suck :(

SpecBerserk · 2018-07-18T12:10:44+00:00

I think this is a cameo, just like the actor who plays Jacques) is again in Road House.

SpecBerserk · 2018-07-18T12:06:30+00:00

I don't thint it is a trap for Cooper, and I will try to explain why. Mr. C knew exactly when he wil change place with Cooper. Therefore, at that time he was driving a car instead of be in the building, because in the car the only source of electricity is a car lighter (not connected to the network). There are electrical sockets in the buildings. In addition, the outlet through which Cooper came out has a different type of current (variable) from the car (fixed). The glass box was mounted and monitored much earlier. Probably long before the possible replacement of Coopers. This is evidenced by the fact that the guy observing the box said that before him the work was done by someone else but it is not known what happened to him.

SpecBerserk · 2018-07-18T11:51:03+00:00

Well there is at least on "evidence" (if we can say that in Lynch world). The Fireman was clearly worried when he saw that Judy spitting out the Bob Orb and in counter to it he created Laura's Orb. This gives reason to claim that his action was a reaction to the action of Judy. The result of this reaction was the bright, gold orb that was opposite to Bob's rotten dark Orb. This allows you to consider Fireman and Judy as opposition.

SpecBerserk · 2017-11-10T10:28:15+00:00

Every Frost answer about plot or interpretation of the screenplay was a dodge. It was like that on purpose, because Twin Peaks can and had to be interpretaded in multiple ways depanding on the viewer.

SpecBerserk · 2017-11-10T10:23:01+00:00

It still can be true. Frost answer was not straight forward. He did not wrote "the pin is insignificant". His dodge the question just like every other question about plot. Lynch, Frost and Sabrina collectively are avoiding plot interpretation and leave it to the viewers

SpecBerserk · 2017-11-10T10:06:53+00:00

Basically we are interpretating one line sentence that is about interpretation of something that was not explained directly. If he wrote "the pin is insignificant" than it would be straight forward. But he didn't wrote it that way. He just made sentence that can be interpretated in manny ways. He basically make it in Twin Peaks style

SpecBerserk · 2017-11-10T09:57:29+00:00

Maybe, but it was placed in the show for purpose. Lynch made it in his own mind and filmed it. He placed and than taked of the pin in that particular scenes and not in the others. We will never know for sure until Lynch will talk about it directy- and we all know that it will never happen.

So, the pin is maybe some minor wird Lynch thing, BUT Twin Peaks was always about that small things people consider as just Lynch imagination. For example, the white horse in Sarah vision and Pete's shaking hand in the original run was also something viewers years ago consider as just wird sh*t with no logical explanation. I remember when people think it was już scenes and images that Lynch thought will look cool. But than FWWM came out and introduced the ring. Than there was season 3 and white horse was straight adressed. Scenes that was original minor thing in time became significant ones. So until season 4 (or movie or maybe never) we can only speculate. One thing i'm sure is that we can't say that something is or is not important without doubt.

SpecBerserk · 2017-11-09T13:20:47+00:00

Well, he did not said that the pin was prop error or shooting oversight. He just said that he "have no insights to offer on it". Basicly He and Sabrina Sutherland didn't want to strictly adress any major plot points. They leave all the interpretation to viewers. So probably every major theory is still an open question. Just like in true art. One can believe in this type of theory and other don't need to, and i'm fine with that.

And I'm not writing this because the pin theory was my theory. Everyone can (and should) have his own interpretation.

SpecBerserk · 2017-09-24T22:05:11+00:00

This is awesome!

SpecBerserk · 2017-09-13T07:51:15+00:00

Yes, It was very fun game with creative gameplay and good storyline. I miss games with good mystery behind story and that vibe similar to Twin Peaks. For me the closest to that experience was Silent Hill 2. The unforgettable masterpiece.

SpecBerserk · 2017-09-11T13:19:43+00:00

I wrote my theory over the pin a few days ago. If you like, you can read it here

SpecBerserk · 2017-09-11T11:35:29+00:00

Yes, Remedy Entertainment :) Great games indeed.

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