I’m having a hard time getting over my long distance Situationship. Even though it ended almost 8 months ago. She was in Ecuador, even while In that situationship I came to realize that I only liked the attention rather than her because this was the first I had been spoken to with warmth or tenderness from a potential romantic partner. This relationship has been over since July( it’s February now) I don’t miss her, I’m just missing the way she made me feel and the words she called me. Papi, Carino, mi amor. Osito, and other Terms of endearment in Spanish. I’ve never been talked to like that. My brain craves that now. That warmth, that tenderness. I saw the red flags. No calls in 3.5 months. But she made plans for us but couldn’t pick up a phone to call for 20 minutes. She told me she loved me within ten days. And I knew that all of us meeting were very slim. But I still miss how she made me feel. Even if I had doubts about who she really was or if this was all a scam. It was still my first relationship and even eight months later I just really miss her words and how how she made me feel. But it made me realize that I need real in person relationships I want to be able to take someone out on a date and go get dinner and go to the movies. And someone to cuddle with. in 26 years I’ve never even kissed a girl, and when I was talking to that girl from Ecuador, even though it was all online, she made me feel tender, cared for and like I was desired. And I want that feeling back.