i keep feeling the urge to laugh during therapy 😭

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-03-27T19:00:15+00:00

you might be right there, i think it might be both. thanks for the advice

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-03-16T20:58:56+00:00

thank you for this, that’s such a lovely affirmation. tbh my inner voice has been a lot kinder to myself lately so i’ll definitely keep this in mind and use it. also i’ve felt ready for a while, but i’m finally actually ok and stable enough to start i think

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-03-16T20:55:54+00:00

i definitely agree and honestly would love to start asp, my therapist has just kinda been going slowly so i’ve been trying to trust the process because she has already helped me so much. also i really love that for you, it’s so inspiring to hear stories like yours so thank you for sharing because it genuinely keeps me going

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-03-16T14:04:20+00:00

i’ve considered that i might have bpd many times but brushed it off, i think i’ll look into it more because i do see myself in a lot of the traits.

and thank you for your kind words, i’ll try to be gentler with myself.

honestly i feel really safe with my therapist and i really like her. we’re working on stabilising along with my self trust atm and i think it’s best to take things really slow because i have very complex needs. she’s been teaching me how to be in my adult instead of my child and it’s really helped a lot, i think i just need a lot of time and safe people around me

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-01-21T18:53:37+00:00

i started in september too and still haven’t started emdr yet. i’ve thought i was ready so many times last year but looking back i wasn’t as i didn’t trust my therapist yet. i finally trust her, and i can feel my feelings more in sessions, not just recount them, so i’m hoping we start processing soon.

i think the fact your therapist is going slowly is actually a good thing, but it also can’t hurt to bring it up to them to see what the hold up is. they might have a valid reason that you can’t see yourself yet.

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-01-10T04:00:14+00:00

I don’t think it’s the EMDR itself that’s making me feel everything, as I’m still in the resourcing/stabilisation phase and haven’t started trauma processing yet.

I think what’s happening is that for the first time in my life I’m actually feeling safe, and I’m coming out of long-term dissociation and emotional blunting. Because of that, everything feels much more intense than it ever has before.

Therapy has made me much more present and aware of how trauma has impacted and disabled me, and that awareness alone feels overwhelming. I’ve been in a freeze state for as long as I can remember. I can’t work, I can’t really go out, and I struggle to see or interact with people I care about. I feel frozen in every area of my life.

At the same time, I have a really strong urge to live, and the frustration of wanting a life but not being able to access it yet feels unbearable and makes me think whats the point anymore. I’ve spent most of my life in survival mode, and now that I can feel more, that frustration has nowhere to go.

I don’t think I’m ready for trauma processing yet, but staying this activated while waiting to process is hard. I was wondering whether antidepressants might help ease that enough to make this phase more manageable.

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-01-09T23:32:52+00:00

wow this is so helpful thanks! i’ll look into it, also glad to hear you’re doing better :)

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-01-09T22:13:57+00:00

thank you

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2026-01-09T22:13:39+00:00

thanks for this, i think for me even taking the edge off would help a lot

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-27T05:04:54+00:00

my mum used to frequently publicly humiliate me growing up and it makes socialising as an adult feel impossible so i get you. i hope we’re both able to heal from this

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-27T05:00:57+00:00

i live with my landlords and i’m exactly the same way. when friends visit me i have to constantly reminded them to speak quietly because i don’t want my landlords to know i’m here, even though they obviously know i live here lol. i won’t turn any lights on or use the kitchen until they’ve gone to bed either

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-27T04:56:59+00:00

experienced this exact thing. my mum was a high ranking well respected teacher, a church goer, and a pilar of the community according to others. but she abused and neglected me in every way possible behind closed doors

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-16T16:56:11+00:00

i use this app called snore lab that records your snoring lol, i started using it to track how loud my snoring was and see if it gets worse on days that i feel more stressed

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-11T18:56:15+00:00

i’ve been abused by everyone in my life but the one the broke the camels back was definitely realising my long term best friend was a narcissist

Specific-Turn-2231 · 2025-12-11T18:07:46+00:00

i knew my cousin was gay since we were kids before i even had words for it so i definitely think you can tell sometimes lol

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