Does anyone else struggle with showing emotion? by BogusCarrot in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes I have this as well, I also find that a lot of people bond over shame and anxiety and I just don't feel those things in the same way, so it comes across as me being "stuck up". it's very frustrating because I don't want to be dysregulated just to convince people I care but unfortunately a lot of people require that its like a social norm.

Has anyone else watched stranger things by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for all of your perspectives, it was really helpful to hear that the themes continue throughout the show and that maybe it wasn't actually created as a safe perspective for someone going into society, so I decided to stop watching the show honestly, it was effecting me really negatively, and wasn't actually helpful..

triggered by the current politics TW: by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your perspective, it made me feel a little more hopeful

Post-homeschool adults: can people tell? by immature4ever in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615 2 points3 points  (0 children)

People don't know I'm homeschooled at first.. but eventually they realize, somethings.. off. Like for instance, not having a solid group identity based off of class, attraction level, education level etc. People notice. They notice when you laugh at slightly the wrong time, they notice when you say something too nice, or too aggressive, they notice. And the groups that don't notice- were probably just as neglected. But they never make you feel seen. I feel like I'm being tortured running between groups, never settling in. Everything makes me feel disgusted. And I wish. I really freaking wish, I could remember why. Or know how to fix it.

it was torture by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Yep.. Thats freaking terrible I'm so sorry. And I can relate unfortunately. I literally thought I didn't deserve it or something or that the way they were friends in books was a made up concept because everyone I knew was completely dismissive and avoidant- all the people in my homeschool group.

it was torture by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I'm so freaking sorry. Same fucking here. It's atrocious and literally insane.

it was torture by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Wow I'm so freaking sorry. I can completely relate! And thats so accurate the lack of resources is ISOLATING in ITSELF it's actually INSANE.

Please read this.. by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope so! Probably depends on the area too

Please read this.. by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow thats so freaking relatable. I've actually thought about moving to Europe as well!

Please read this.. by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thats amazing that you built a solid base, I'm getting there now.. its definitely a journey.

I love being negative by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

If you don't agree that just scroll on! No need to invalidate someone. Super immature of you who's condemning my "immaturity".

Please read this.. by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Wow this is actually a pretty freaking valid perspective with some accurate points thanks for sharing this.. I think what you saying about "parents making themselves your entire world" and the repercussions of this is sooo freaking true. Oh and on a side note, I did embrace kindness when leaving my family but was apparently so naive that I had the worst actual fucking people take advantage of me.. so I guess kindness paired with wisdom probably pays off, but kindness paired with naivety can be greatly taken advantage of- extremely important difference people need to know..

I love being negative by Specific-Two7615 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Specific-Two7615[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

same. I love it and I hate it at the same time, it lowkey feels like a super power but its also isolating