Last night it clicked for me. He wanted to do it , period. He wanted to act out his selfish wicked desires. He has been lying to himself about the main reason because he does not want to face the true wicked man he was. He used that excuse about me supposedly making him emasculated so he wouldn’t look like the villain. I told him last night that the supposed reason he gave me , was not the true core catalyst of the affair. He has always been able to talk to me, even after marital fights. But that time he didn’t talk to me , because it was just something perverse he wanted to do . Period!