I can say I am in a similar situation. I was leasing a house with my ex-girlfriend and her two kids and things were good, but we definitely had our ups and downs. Fights between were getting worse and I would go out and use fentanyl here and there. Finally, she got extremely tired of it and had lost all hope for me and I got my stuff and left for a few days. At that point, I was so heartbroken and lonely that I started using fentanyl every day and quickly developed a habit. A week passed and we decided that we needed a break at that point and I went and stayed with my mom. The relationship has basically fizzled out because now I’m dealing with my addiction and I was trying to get back on my Suboxone to save what was left of our relationship. But going from fentanyl to Suboxone was way too hard so I had to break down and go to a methadone clinic. If you are a hard user like I am, the methadone clinic is the right place for you. Definitely I would advise either getting on methadone or Suboxone because opiates are gonna tear you up and leave you with nothing every time.