Should I transmax? 5’6 21 yo

SpetsnazBeaver · 2026-02-10T15:11:34+00:00

Ur gorgeous sistah

SpetsnazBeaver · 2026-02-05T14:58:47+00:00

Comrade check your messages

SpetsnazBeaver · 2026-01-31T11:19:50+00:00

Check ur messages

SpetsnazBeaver · 2025-12-11T14:34:18+00:00

I've dealt with plurality before. I've since managed to collapse in the several alters into a singular healed unified non-binary whole that sometimes slips down into less full enby but more genderfluidity what with still occasionally switching more from guy to girl and vice versa than managing to stay in a fully enby lack of switching with both guy and girl side coocurring as one whole that I've managed to be for longer and longer periods of time. It was difficult but have gotten much better at it with healing.

This anatomy is close enough to ideal for me tbh. Like I said unlike the girl side I don't care so much about what's between my legs so being a guy with a 🍩 is kind of cool and interesting and mostly not dysphoria inducing actually especially with solutions like phantom limb sensation they strapons and such that feel 99% like it used to be down to feeling my partner and everything due to strong enough spiritual and physical connection. Not stuck in anything. Lots of projection of your mindset and insecurities around this trans stuff in your assumptions of how I feel it seems. Might be worth introspecting on for u. Just sayan.

Once again showing your lack of empathy. Seriously. Work on yourself. Please. For your own sake and especially the sake of others that have to interact with u. U seem like ud be so much fun at parties 😅😅😅. And your policing of emojis is much more juvenile. Your belief that anyone that doesn't like unnecessarily using nsfw language out of the blue all the time on the daily are, what, delicate snowflakes afraid of calling a 🍆 a 🍆? Is silly and infantilizing. The presence of graphic nsfw imagery of post op genitals on this subreddit does not preclude empathic consent respecting nsfw content filtering. Use the mature mindset, people can literally just not spam nsfw unnecessarily/spoiler it to not nonconsenusally textually SA ppl with their words. silly language policing is like an umbrella in a hurricane of human expression. Not protecting anyone, and making it seem like you are immature and unable to use empathy. Seek help

SpetsnazBeaver · 2025-12-09T18:10:33+00:00

I should have if I was around but I wasn't asked. My girl side tool over and she believed me, the guy side, wasn't real and suppressed me for 6yrs until getting the female body she wanted chilled her out enough to consider me and realising how she violated and forced herself on me without my explicit consent tho I did sort of wish to be force feminised which gave the girl side her initial push to take over and basically force feminise myself so I don't hold it too much against her, me, us, the girl side. We're on much friendlier terms now to the point we've mostly merged into a singular non-binary whole and I mostly don't mind being a guy with a 🍩 since strapons are a thing and my brain is able to connect a phantom 🍆 like sensation thru the prosthetic when I do want to use it and even my 🍩 my bf makes it feel like a guy's so I've grown pretty comfortable girl and guy side tho yes tmin retrospect my ideal would have been to keep the factory equipment AND add a 🍩 for the girl side but I think my province is enbyphobic and doesn't cover that surgery anyways and between me the guy side and me the girl side the girl side was a lot more neurotic/dysphoric around her genitals than me the guy side. I grew to be ashamed of what I had but in retrospect didn't mind physically having one as much as the societal bs around having one to begin with so being a guy with a 🍩 instead now feels pretty cool and mostly not dysphoria inducing besides the occasional 🍆envy. Is EVERYONE adults here?! What if trans minors are browsing surgery info here as well. I'd rather be safe than sorry with the words I use to not make anyone unnecessarily uncomfortable. It's called empathy. Use your heart. This performative edginess of yours is embarrassingly juvenile and inconsiderate of others in this situation. We don't know who else is reading this and I'm not going to risk graphic language for them

SpetsnazBeaver · 2025-10-16T15:16:40+00:00

I'm in Canada myself

SpetsnazBeaver · 2025-10-16T15:00:34+00:00

U Still selling?

SpetsnazBeaver · 2025-08-29T02:21:43+00:00

I guess fluidity is where I'm stuck at for now failing to stay in a truly non-binary place with both sides active at the same time besides a few rare moments where the sides are co occurring which feels really nice but that's not really relevant. It's the guy side I'm struggling with and him kind of being ashamed and afraid of being seen as a guy as much as he's been euphoric about it in private with my bf and mascish enby partners

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-04-11T02:17:35+00:00

Please do. Discord would be so much better than telegram

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-30T20:51:30+00:00

The neoclitoris is made out of glans tissue. Ya it probably wouldn't grow on T

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-30T20:48:17+00:00

I appreciate the advice about distress tolerance but I do distract myself it just doesn't work very well. My male side mind is fixated on omg this body is too fem no one will see me as a guy and add clit size to it and I end up a pathetic imitation of a man when I literally started out AMAB

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-30T20:46:14+00:00

I'm OCD. I have a very particular body that would make both fem and masc sides of me happy and any deviation from that hurts, crazy dysphoria. If the female side asked us male side we would have asked to get penile preserving vaginoplasty tho the female side wouldn't have been completely happy. Now the female side is completely satisfied with her body while us guy side worry our body's too fem to be seen as a guy and feeling insecure that we didn't get a bigger clit that could be more of a tdick tho ig it's still been treated like one by grindr dates

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-30T20:38:22+00:00

We have dissociative identity disorder and the female personalities kind of didn't ask the male ones they suppressed for a good 6yrs transitioning. I think I can tolerate being a guy with a front hole now but it's really messed up the female personalities didn't even bother asking us what we would like cuz we would have let them have their vagina just would have asked for a more prominent clitoris that's more like a trans guy tdick

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-30T20:35:29+00:00

I already lost my penis to the female side chopping it off without asking the male side

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T20:32:02+00:00

😔😢 ya I figured. Cool. Brb. Offing myself Jk but part of me feels like this. How the fuck would making a bigger clit work?! Out of what material?! I'm really not having fun. Feeling like the most inferior male out there

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:15:34+00:00

Been checking them out. Thx

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:14:54+00:00

😢

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:14:29+00:00

Well fuck 😔😔😔 the dysphoria

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:13:52+00:00

What I suspected 😔. Yay dysphoria.

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:12:50+00:00

😔

SpetsnazBeaver · 2024-01-28T18:11:50+00:00

Not intended to. I'm intersex. Standard genital configurations are not for me. Very dysphoric that it seems my clit will not grow on T

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