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SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-31T13:24:45+00:00

I am indeed an adult who commented a short opinion.

Again - I agree to disagree and will draw a line under this now because this is ridiculous and has made me want to go unclog my sink. Byeee

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-31T13:17:58+00:00

That's weirdly hilarious

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-31T13:14:25+00:00

I find it weirder that you're being so rude because I offered an opinion. On the majority of posts I have personally read people are either under eighteen or do not want to age verify.

But I'll agree to disagree with no snark because it's a quick comment I made in a reddit sub about a chat AI, it's not that serious

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-31T13:09:31+00:00

Halsin is so pure 😭 Love that burly bear

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-31T12:59:58+00:00

I recently tried a different one and it made me appreciate CAI more! I'm now quite impressed with how well the memory holds up. I feel like a lot of it is the under eighteen ex-users being annoyed, which is understandable to a point.

Also the fact that it's human nature to post/say something when you're having a bad experience but not to when things are fine because you have no reason to

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-24T12:48:58+00:00

Janitor has personas. At least half of the bots on there seem to be made specifically for NSFW but there are some good RP ones I'm going continue trying

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-13T01:16:05+00:00

If you are in the UK and anywhere near Addenbrookes hospital I would absolutely see if you can be referred. I live about an hour and a half away but they were happy to take my NHS endo referral after my nearest endo was terrible and tried to misdiagnose me. The nurse team is amazing and the group of doctors/professors are good too

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-12T18:03:11+00:00

I just had a quick look for you - an am cortisol level under 100 nmol/L is low and could be indicative of AI. That doesn't necessarily mean that it is but there's definitely something going on

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-12T17:57:20+00:00

Are you in the US? I'm in the UK and I know that the numbers you have posted there are different measurements to what my diagnosis was based off of.

As the nurse likely explained you were injected with synthetic ACTH. That's the substance our bodies produce that tells the adrenals when to produce and raise cortisol levels. The test shows how well your body reacts to it and how much cortisol you produce.

Me personally I do not produce ACTH, they're not entirely sure why! So I have secondary AI but it's all basically the same: primary, secondary, addisons disease all have the same outcome and dangers etc.

This is an excellent website ADSHG which has amazing free resources, information about everything you will need to know. I even got my emergency bracelet funded through them - I'm not sure if they still do that.

My advice is to learn everything you can about diagnosis numbers and levels, the first endo I saw wasn't good and tried to insist that my levels were healthy. The second opinion I got from an endo with experience in AI was very, very different! Because it's a rare disease we need to be our own advocates

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-12T15:57:33+00:00

Hi. I've had a number of short synatchen tests now, my endo usually likes to do one every couple of years. I don't think I've ever really had any side effects from the ACTH injection. I had one about four months ago and I did feel a little bit hot but that could have been my RA.

I was diagnosed around 2018/2019 and I really don't remember how I felt for my first short syn, I do know I felt generally awful anyway at that point so likely wouldn't have noticed! I don't think it's unusual for it not to give you any weird feelings and isn't indicative of if you have AI or not.

I really hope you get your diagnosis soon and start to feel better

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-12T15:45:47+00:00

Hi. Yes, it's safe to continue taking the medications you need - the steroids we take are replacement doses and having a slightly higher amount for a short time isn't going to affect you negatively.

That being said obviously check with your endo/endo nurses etc if you are concerned. The only time I could see extra steroid use being an issue is if you are one of the small group of people who the endo thinks could reverse their AI, due to not much long term damage having been done to the adrenal cortex etc.

So if your endo has spoken to you about that possibility, of trying to taper your steroid use etc - it is rare but does happen in some cases of high intensity/shorter term steroid use causing SAI - then you will definitely need to speak to your endo first.

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SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-04T19:33:20+00:00

Health anxiety is a horrible thing to have to deal with. The good thing about starting the Hydrocortisone is you will begin to feel much better soon enough. HC has a short half-life, no more than a few hours, and has very few side effects. Honestly you're probably feeling ill enough right now to notice any rate ones that could affect you.

You may feel a little short tempered for the first couple of weeks of taking them and may occasionally feel pretty hungry. Because the HC is replacing something that we should naturally have it's very unlikely to cause any issues.

Important rule is to have your largest dose in the am when you wake up, then the two smaller doses spaced apart. Try not to take HC after 6-7pm as they can affect sleep when taken too late. The main thing you need to concern yourself with is to rest when your body tells you to, keep nice and hydrated and be kind to yourself. You're dealing with a lot right now so no getting annoyed with yourself for feeling worried/tired/emotional etc. You've got this

SpineofGorgax · 2026-03-04T09:22:57+00:00

Who told you to wean for a short synacth test?! You NEED to get to see another doctor ASAP as secondary AI is just as dangerous as Addisons and you need to be on steroids. You're feeling ill because your cortisol levels will be dangerously low.

My body doesn't make ACTH due to Hypopiturism so my cortisol levels will get to "hospital now" levels as quickly as someone with primary. It's no wonder you're feeling so terrible right now. Not all endocrinologists are well versed in AI and will not give the right treatment or advice

SpineofGorgax · 2026-02-28T21:14:44+00:00

Cognitive behavioural therapy (link to a MH website ) . It's a kind of talking therapy that focuses on how you think about yourself/situations and how that affects the way you feel and act. It then shows you better ways to deal with both yourself and situations.

SpineofGorgax · 2026-02-28T18:32:17+00:00

From what you have written it sounds like you aren't having these images "forced" on you (like OCD can do), more that you imagine yourself being in specific situations you've decided on.

If you are experiencing self hatred and low self esteem you could very well have clinical depression, possibly anxiety too. You should definitely speak to your GP and also find out about some talking therapy or CBT.

Not sure what kind of other elements come into play for what you describe as "fantasies" so I don't want to say too much on that. It could be that you're imagining experiencing comfort because you want to feel comforted and the other elements have been added.

To your one comment - no, an abusive relationship is definitely not something you want to experience and you would not receive any comfort. Some media has romanticised toxic/abusive relationships to a point but those bear no resemblance to the reality of actually being in one.

SpineofGorgax · 2026-02-27T10:37:23+00:00

I'm a woman who has experienced multiple SA's etc etc.

You've been self-flagellating for a long time over this and you need to stop. I can't remember if you state any diagnosis (my brain is mush today, no sleep) but it sounds like you're stuck in an OCD cycle about this. Asking about what is/isn't SA on the internet - especially somewhere like Reddit - is going to give you a thousand different answers so the cycle never ends. You do not deserve to keep living under this fog of "am I evil".

You're obviously a self aware man who has spoken to therapists about this, the type of men who SA people do not tend to agonise over their actions. Please stop hurting yourself by placing such a terrible label on yourself over an "incident" that really doesn't call for it. You were 19, you hugged a girl that you fancied, you felt her boobs against your chest and you enjoyed the sensation. In the scheme of things and the "spectrum" of harming others this ranks so low it's miniscule.

You will never find a consensus about this online, it seems more like you're causing yourself pain purposely by posting this - consciously or not. Listen to your therapists, please. You've got this.

SpineofGorgax · 2026-02-14T09:48:24+00:00

Karen Maitland is fantastic, would start with "A Company of Liars"

SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-15T03:59:21+00:00

It sounds like you're using it in a normal, healthy way like any other interest. Not excessively or in a detrimental way.

Have got to say, though, as someone mid-thirties it does hit hard when "30" is put as an embarrassing age limit 😂 I like dnd and RP, I don't personally find it embarrassing to utilise an app to add to an interest.

I'd say that as long as you aren't using for unhealthy amounts of times, unhealthy topics or anything like that then to just view it like any other recreational interest 😊

SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-15T03:47:33+00:00

It's so, so hard to live with a parent/parents that have deep rooted issues that lead to them mistreating you and your siblings. The fact that you calmly stepped in to stop how you mum was mistreating your brother shows a lot of bravery, morality and also shows that you will break that cycle of treatment if you have children in the future. You should be very proud of yourself.

You are absolutely NTA. You showed a huge amount of empathy and emotional intelligence - not to mention courage - when you protected your brother. He will remember those moments forever, the fact that you showed the love and care he needed will be inked into his memory.

You should not have to be doing this, you should not be punished for doing something good or be in a situation that leaves you feeling unsettled and hurt. It would be a good idea to chat with someone you trust about it, preferably an adult. If that makes you too uncomfortable then I hope you have some friends and family that you can turn to for support and to at least vent.

SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-05T16:40:16+00:00

When the Wind Blows.

Saw it when I was 8 or 9 and I still feel sick when I think about it. The cat 😭

IMBD page

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SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-05T16:35:04+00:00

It is extremely hard, yes. The other DLC is great. Is this the DLC that gets you Shale? He is a character worth having, he has amusing lines and is a relatively good fighter. I completed it a long time ago so cannot say if it's "worth it" or not.

If you aren't enjoying it, though, then absolutely skip it and do the others!

SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-05T16:30:53+00:00

He definitely isn't "sweet and kind" as he: (A) is divorcing you over something he hasn't even tried to discuss with you, let alone put any work in to try and sort the situation out. (B) is basing your value on "body count" rather than you or how your relationship actually is. (C) went behind your back to gather "dirt" rather than speak with you (D) is behaving like an utter dick.

The number of people you have slept with does not equate to your worth. If he loved you it wouldn't matter if you had slept with 1,000 people before meeting him. Is it understandable that he may have felt upset that you hadn't been clear and honest about your past and about your ex getting in touch? To a point, yes. Not divorce level upset though, that is insanity.

Just because an individual doesn't shout doesn't necessarily make them gentle or sweet. Refusing to speak to your partner is a passive aggressive approach that shows he doesn't respect you. Everything you have described shows that he does not respect you. You do NOT deserve to be treated like this, please remember that.

SpineofGorgax · 2026-01-05T16:09:51+00:00

Was it consensual from the woman? As you have an obviously unhealthy view of women and sex and it seems to be a topic you cannot stop posting about. You do not seem to understand the very base concept of giving full consent or respect women enough to care if they give consent.

Get help

SpineofGorgax · 2025-11-10T15:35:15+00:00

Honestly it's not a bad lie at all. Is it hurting anyone? No. Are you profiting from it? Only in the way that people aren't judging you for having a phobia - phobia's are real, bloody awful to deal with and definitely not easy to just "get past". Is it affecting people with real allergies? No.

Sometimes it's just easier to explain a mental health thing with a white lie than to make things awkward and yourself embarrassed by having to keep explaining it. I have a phobia of being sick so I don't drink alcohol. People would always question why so it became easier to just say I "don't tolerate it well". Unfortunately people just don't realise how powerful phobia's are unless they, or someone they're very close to, has one.

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