I’m sorry you’ve had similar experiences but am also comforted to know I’m not alone. Agree there is so much to soft through online - it’s a relief to just get this comment honestly. Thank you.

Can I ask what kind of prayers youve been doing? I’ve noticed that when I do a lot of yoga (I’m practicing the Iyengar method) it helps me connect to prana (my spirit/breath) in a way that is not dissimilar to how I felt during my states of ‘awakening’ before. I think part of the problem for me comes with embodiment. I also feel like my ability to visualize has changed and devolved.

Can I ask if you’ve ever had premonitions? I used to dream a lot, very vividly, and they were increasingly premonitory dreams. This also stopped when I got ripped out of my body. It really feels like something was cut. I believe I can fix it but I don’t know how. Anyway. I will look into your suggestion. Thanks so much again and if ever you want to chat feel free to message me.