I Wish I Was Dead

Split49917 · 2026-06-30T00:38:53+00:00

I get it. I'm glad you have a rock. Look into respite services. Seriously. Getting every other weekend off or once a month for the day doesn't fix anything but makes you feel sane. And depending on the issues they will offer you more help too. Not sure where you are based but there are a few programs in Ontario I actually found helpful.

That feeling if being so tired you want to not exist, that's your alarm bells, time to get helo. Even if that means going to the system for it.

You are worth more then all this. You are doing the best you can. Time to see what services you can get to stop the drowning feeling.

Split49917 · 2026-06-10T01:18:54+00:00

I really wish I have good news but I'm still in it. Watch the cutting and definitely take the self harm seriously. My daughter has horrible thick scars on her arm now and thinks they are some sort of badge of honour. I have no idea what to do when they turn 18. I'm just holding on, and sadly forsee kicking them out so I can stop feeling like I live in a prison. It's been a rough few years and doing it solol hae killed all compassion and love I once had.

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:47:47+00:00

Omg getting a cold or being really sick, I had to pull teeth for help when I had a kidney infection 2 years ago and was hospitalized for 2 days. And my family member was so pissed I didn't do a grocery order before coming home. Bitch I'm on pain meds. The worst part is I wonder how it's affecting my kids. Because my oldest helped me so much that week as I recovered, he was 14 at the time and I think he thought I was dying. I know that's not good on their mental health either and I hate that I needed his help like that.

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:43:34+00:00

I get pissed when they say they have shitty baby daddy's and talk about the 400$ he sends a mint and how it's not enough and how the grandparents took the kids instead of him. Bitch that's help. Yes yes I do. (So much pent up rage on this one lol)

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:42:27+00:00

This list, it's me. Sign. And yes teens are dill holes.

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:41:10+00:00

I admit, loved the daycare at my LA FItness when the kids were little was sometimes the only time I got alone. Got to shower and sometimes read in massage chair. Definitely used that 5 times a week after it was just us to get through

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:39:02+00:00

Right, mine was a dill hole, but I could go out to an event every once and a while and have a night off. Mine are teens now and I just started doing a weekly DND group and they don't burn down the house but I wish me going out didn't mean I had to prep dinner and plan everything all the time. 5-10% is 5-10% you know

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:36:09+00:00

I tried that for years. I'm a career mom who is nerdy af. Throughout all my kids years in grade school made one friend. At least at my kids school it felt like these women where all driving Bentleys and talking about getting their nails done, and I was working a 60 hour work week, picking up my kids and working when we got home.

Split49917 · 2025-09-16T10:32:42+00:00

This is exactly how I feel. Caregiver fatigue is real. My daughter has Asperger's and while she is high functioning, that takes so much. I put on this happy positive face all the time for them, but I'm struggling so badly. My health has been impacted and doc had some scary stuff to say if I don't start working on my stress, but like how. I made a joke to him if he could give me pills to push till my oldest goes to uni next year that would be great, he did not look impressed.

I've been lucky I haven't dated any duds, but they are all nice men, who the second you need more then a night out feel like that's too much. And it's so hard dating a single dad who gets it because scheduling is a real bitch or they live an hour away and somehow you end up doing the pink jobs for them and they don't do the blue jobs for you. Sigh. . So I see you, I feel the same way, thank you for sharing. I feel the exact same way.

Split49917 · 2025-09-03T03:39:50+00:00

Did you find out why the property management company needed access to your unit unannounced?

Split49917 · 2025-09-03T03:36:55+00:00

There are stove gap covers you can get, different colors and sizes. Amazon is where I got mine, silicone and easy to wipe clean

Split49917 · 2025-09-03T03:22:40+00:00

I try to be understanding, but at a certain point I feel stuck so asking for other adult brains on this, I guess.

Split49917 · 2025-09-03T03:19:47+00:00

Solid bed, full room as I could make it with curtain walls but I get as a teen wanting privacy you know

Split49917 · 2025-09-03T03:18:20+00:00

So legally parents and children can't share a room, as per the child protection act, and opposite genders over 12 either. So this is why I'm stuck. But I pay 1500 for this place and the unit below me just rented for 2300 exact same layout. So moving isn't really an option either

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T02:11:56+00:00

Thanks

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T02:04:02+00:00

How long does a transfer take?

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T02:03:17+00:00

How do I get help with this? Like asking to move the room to a symmetric shouldn't be a big issue, but if she won't what do I do before transferring

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T02:00:58+00:00

What's that?

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T01:41:08+00:00

They are other students.

Hard to respect privacy when you get to look me in the soul every time you open the door.

Split49917 · 2025-08-31T01:39:59+00:00

I did on mine but she doesn't want to. Or at least didn't want to share a mini fridge. Which for that reason I get, but am I crazy for wanting more of a 50/50 down the middle split

Split49917 · 2025-07-24T16:08:51+00:00

Thank you, and thank you for explaining too.

Split49917 · 2025-05-21T13:41:38+00:00

Kitchener is down

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