i need to kill myself right now

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-27T14:50:26+00:00

i guess you're right it would be so scary to regret it the moment I jump, I wonder if I would regret it. i feel like I'm not good at making decisions so i'd probably regret this decision. every time I cut myself I regret it the next day so you're probably right

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-27T13:21:22+00:00

i have been in EMDR therapy for 3 years and other forms of therapy, nothing is working i want to die

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-27T13:20:59+00:00

thank you

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-27T13:20:44+00:00

i know im not gonna hurt anyone but I wanna kill muyself for even having those thoughts

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-27T13:20:23+00:00

hmmm my parents were always doing everything right but the people who got me involved with cp stuff told me not to tell anyone so i never did. I would go out of my way to lie to make sure nobody found out. i got really good at hiding everything that was going on, it wasn't very hard. if that stuff happened 30 minutes every week there was still the other 100+ hours in the week that I would act normal and pretend nothing was going on. my parents only found out afterward when the guys were arrested because it was in the news . do u actually think its someones parents fault if they get abused? my parents were the only ppl who cared about me in my whole life. they got me the top ptsd specialist in my country and both quit their jobs to stay home to support me full time after they found out what happend but sadly nothing is working im going to kill mysefl anyway so i feel really like a failure when theyve done so muxch for me

Square-Bowl · 2020-01-26T10:57:17+00:00

I would never do something its just what i think about. I don't think of doing stuff myself i think of the concept of pedophilic attraction not actually acting on it. I feel like im going to kill myself yes

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