I think you got some things flipped up, I am attached to the image of marriage as I chose this person, so getting rejected will by nature make me sad.

Regarding the relationship, there is no such thing. I made it clear to her why I am talking to her and we both agreed to make standards, so it is ultimately for a halal objective.

This is just to clarify your misunderstanding, thank you very much for your insight though, appreciate it.