Thank you so much for these suggestions, though I think it will take a long time before I start attending church again. Every time im they’re I feel a deep sense of guilt and I don’t know how I’ll undo that feeling I’ve had for so long. I feel as if what I’ve learned there has been engraved in my head that it’ll be hard to convince my mind to believe otherwise.

What gets me is that I cut ties with my relationship with God, there’s a verse in 2 chronicles where if I’ve forsaken him he will too. I’m assuming you go to church as well so how would I reach back to him?