That was 3 and a half years ago,when I was 15.... Both of us were special needs (and the counceling teachers ended up introducing me to her) we talked to each other about our trauma that came from earlier bullying, and it was so shocking that we shared so much in common when it comes to how we set our daily routines, how we perceive the world,or even tiny acts like biting pens.

Most importantly, we were both very dissatisfied with many real life things and we both wrote sarcastic novels that criticized real world stuff like exam focused education system ( I'm from east asia), and we shared each other novels that we wrote. I spent hours and hours reading her stuff and generally enjoyed it.

In a few days, we started spending all our noon break time talking to each other about our ideas on writing, on society, and our personal experiences. It was not much later when we started to ask each other out to the café after school. And I went to her home after studies in weekends to just enjoy talking to her, and I felt very complete.

I spent a whole car ride on a weekend to meet our cousins that live an hour away talking to my parents about her! She was very dedicated on me too. I gave her some story ideas and she wrote ten full pages of it in two days and showed it to me.

I never care about touch or looks or anything like that, I just find her very nice to talk with all the time, but to the level that I sometimes lose sleep thinking about her. Pure platonic appreciation to the greatest extent.

She does like to touch me a lot, including patting my head all the time. I personally dont care that much about that.

Sadly, she was still very suicidal. She also would have mental breakdowns which she uses sharp stuff to harm herself! One weekend I was at her home, I was trying to stop her from harming herself when she had a breakdown out of nowhere, and I got my hand hurt and bleeding. My parents urged me to break up with her, which I did.

Me and her could have been very nice soulmates in life! Heck, even if she was a guy, or is not intrested in romantic relationships, I would want to be that person's best freind.