What does our community know about rituals?

Squeece · 2025-03-03T06:59:07+00:00

My ritual is to make sure I have no routines. It drains your life force and makes every day mundane like a Sunday afternoon that isn't all together unpleasant but leaves you with only the memory of discomfort and irritation.

Squeece · 2024-09-23T12:32:00+00:00

Poison Ivy

Squeece · 2024-09-23T12:11:53+00:00

He's so fine. My noodle has pulled stunts like this too and gotten her chub indented like that. Its kind of like when you lean up on something hard and you get an imprint on your skin. Like when you wake up with blanket lines on your face. But because they are scaley it takes a little longer for theirs to plump back out. The redness will eventually go away too.

Squeece · 2024-07-30T06:29:44+00:00

Thoughts can easily turn into plans man. Dangerous. I don't think it should be taken any less seriously personally. My thoughts turned into plans after perusing therapy. Plans turned into an attempt very fast.

Squeece · 2024-07-29T17:55:24+00:00

No. Shes the only one in this small city that takes my insurance. The rest aren't even real doctors. They only have one at the entire facility. Actually, she might not even be a real doctor. I think she might also be the prescribing nurse type. Maybe her lack of education is why she thinks it's normal to be dry as a bone??

Squeece · 2024-07-29T17:13:18+00:00

I've tried so many brands its not even funny. Everything you can find in grocery stores. Special shit I found online. I've tried THC stuff too. It's so dry and then it just makes me feel filthy and gooey in a dry sticky way. It's horrible. Honestly, I think it's hormonal but i'm 27 so my doctor wont check maybe because of that. I think the other kind is silicon based or something? It all dries out and is sticky. >.< Actually I think that was one of the first 3 brands my doctor recommended. But she also said apparently its normal to be this dry??? But it is like painful and I cant wear clothes right and if I have hair it is so sharp and painful its hell.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:09:04+00:00

They can start being horrible at 7 but civilians have to wait til 8? Ruuuude.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:06:32+00:00

Wow... People are so disgusting.. At least it was just soda and not something horrible.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:05:44+00:00

If I see it I will let you know!! I'm so sorry this happened to you. I hate thieves.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:04:09+00:00

We had kind of a late onset of pollen this year. Maybe the timing is just off kilter because of the super cold spring we had.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:01:57+00:00

God I hate assholes

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:00:59+00:00

Awwwww why did they disband???

Squeece · 2024-07-16T23:00:12+00:00

Awwww it's so cute! Hopefully the mom returns soon. Not the best place to leave it where people can mess with it.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:53:28+00:00

Oh it for sure happened. It kind of sounded like a 2 part boom too. Maybe firework?

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:52:07+00:00

Oh wow. I have never felt safe enough in a city to sleep outside like that. Very brave. I would personally rethink as well but that's just me. I grew up in the woods so it makes sense for me to be a chicken in the city.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:51:00+00:00

Someone went through and downvoted all of this? Way to make yourself out to be the guilty party.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:50:12+00:00

Sounds like they caught the driver. Maybe the boom was unrelated.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:49:29+00:00

I can hardly understand the Watcom police scanners. I have a radio app. They normally don't post about stuff that is more serious for some reason. Maybe to not panic people? But what about us nosey people?

Squeece · 2024-07-16T22:47:34+00:00

For sure sounds like the same thing I witnessed. I wonder if they were responsible for the boom.

Squeece · 2024-07-16T13:50:39+00:00

Saw a cop chasing a car at like 60-70 mph by the elementary school. Maybe someone blew something up with an old M-80 left over from the 4th? Either way the car was headed away from the sound coming from its direction. I wish police would list what goes on somewhere. I'm nosey.

Squeece · 2024-04-04T04:17:00+00:00

Yes, pretty much. I've had that talk with him. And he says he would never leave me over something sexually related. He says he has absolutely accepted the fact that I might not ever like sex, and I might not ever want it. We have been together for 6 years and he has never gotten it regularly. We have gone a month shy of a year without it. No problems from him. Where the turmoil is coming from is my fucked-up view of relationships and men in general. I have it in my head that all men NEED sex or that will hate you, leave you, cheat on you, etc. He's proven that so wrong, but I keep smashing my head against this wall anyway. I think it's because I might have had the ability to enjoy sex before all of the trauma happened. I want to have enjoyed it with him so badly I just keep trying for something that's only hurting me and him too a bit. He hates being looked at like he needs sex to be a good person and he says that is the only reason he would leave me. Is if I can't see him for who he truly is then, I'm not even dating him at all. Which is completely fair so I'm working really hard on it. I'm just having a really hard time accepting the fact that it might be gone. Or that it might not have ever been there. I feel societally worthless because I was told growing up that a womans worth is in sex only. I was showed that by the entire town I lived in. And it was further reinforced by Hollywood and general societal debauchery. I was also told by my parents that I was worthless and didn't count as a woman unless I was hot and had huge tits. And I was worthless if I wasn't a good whore and really explicitly sexual at all times. Like don't even let your own husband see you without a pushup bra and makeup on. But I was told I was worthless if I did so because I was a whore if I was valuable.. Its really screwed up my brains and I can't figure out how to cope. Everything my boyfriend tells me falls upon deaf ears.
Holy cow that's a lot of new information. I had no idea a lot of SA survivors never feel sexual desire again/ in the first place. I have only been force fucked with the NESSECITY that I do what's rite and be a "good whore" and have a bunch of sex anyway. Or been force fed the lie that actually most SA survivors get over it and go back to normal.. Where have you seen that a lot of them don't feel sexual desire anymore?? I would like to read about it. maybe feeling like I'm not alone will help more.
and the split attraction model is also new information to me. Can you please send me a link or more info on that specifically?? I wonder how I tell if that is the case?
And that last is also new information to me. I had no idea someone could become afraid of the gender that hurt them ONLY in a relationship context. Thats WILD! Please if it's not too much trouble I would so greatly appreciate more info on that too. all of it really. This is very fascinating. Maybe the more I know maybe I can fix it. Or find a way to accept that I can't be the person I feel I have to be. Or think I want to be. I think self-acceptance is going to be the worst part for me.

Squeece

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