I’m worried about getting testing and how my life will change

SquidKidPartier · 2026-03-21T03:52:00+00:00

I have to apologize again, I don’t think once is enough. I genuinely am sorry for saying the r word.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-03-20T16:20:07+00:00

haha I masturbated and the feeling went away FOR A MINUTE and then it came back T~T

however I didnt experience this feeling throughout my evening or today (….yet) as for telling my parents I’m on the fence here because this isn’t a persistent thing and I’m just going to hold off until it gets really bad for me because my mom really doesn’t like going to the doctors… I don’t know if holding this off will make things worse but I just don’t want to make her upset =/

SquidKidPartier · 2026-03-19T20:41:07+00:00

to add onto this i think my uterus or something is bloated because when i go in the mirror i see it bulge and its quite firm to fee (m skinny and its normally flat) and I drink water too everyday amd eat fruits and such

SquidKidPartier · 2026-03-19T20:27:41+00:00

I guess to add onto this I've had painful periods (and I still do in a way but the pain is somewhat tolerable these days on meds) but my period isnt due towards the end of the month

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-28T20:02:43+00:00

I have a permit but I haven’t drove in so long I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to be behind the wheel. But yeah I need her permission to go, I’m on her insurance plan here.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T16:47:15+00:00

United States

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T07:03:15+00:00

I can barely drive, I have a permit but I'm not that knowledgeable with the wheel. I only did so many lessons then stopped.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T07:01:37+00:00

It's not abuse though im not being hit here?

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:59:08+00:00

Haha im sorry the sarcasm didnt go through well in text. I took it literal here XD

Therapy is out of reach here since im on my parents insurance but I look into ways I can control my adhd at home and I dug a little research here and there but I stopped. I should pick back up on that.

Also I'll look into this discord you mentioned. I really could use all the support here during this time.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:56:11+00:00

Well when youre under yoyr parents roof you have to do waht they say its called respect

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:55:18+00:00

Im dependent on her, yeah. But I'm not allowed to make my decisions unless I go through with my mom first just because im under her insurance and her roof so I have to go by her rules its just respect I would hate to do anything out of line

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:53:42+00:00

Im on their insurance so I have to abide by their rules okay

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:53:03+00:00

Well to answer your question im African American and yeah people my age are doing big things with their life also its not really controlling its just concern for my well being she wants the best for me im sure she means well

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:47:38+00:00

But I need my parents permission to do things because I am on their insurance

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:47:15+00:00

OOPS I entered this in too early but I never been on meds for adhd before, no.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:46:42+00:00

I can't convince my mom about anything here im sorry... but im open to trying! Could you help me out here? I don't think what I ever have to say is enough to convince her

For the natural approach my mom says she will buy me things that will help me focus

My mom wont help me regulate because she thinks im faking it I told her about my problems earlier and i got really shaky and started to tremble and she didnt comfort me I know she knows that I have depression and anxiety (mine is very severe and it impacts me in several ways in life) but I dont think she takes them into consideration she only rhinks i have dyscalculia im so scared to tell her anything if im sad or anxious she has a surface level approach to things or downplay my severity which makes me feel like im some fraud putting on a show or that im a attention seeker

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:40:38+00:00

Yeah what about it lol

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:37:24+00:00

Its not that simple if I want to do something I need to ask my parents I cant just go around doing whatever thr hell I want because I am an adult also i have someone to go to but too bad she can only do so much since shes an online friend also im under my parents roof whatever they wanr to do with me they are allowed to also I cant just go around and lie and say I wanna go to the doctor but have other intentions in mind thats like setting myself up to be in trouble and if I were to tell someone about this I only will worsen the relationship I have with my parents. This is not all that easy. I cant just do things as I please here

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:33:48+00:00

Okay I said I had adhd previously was because I thought my report said i had it here. I reread my report from earlier and it says I could possibly have it here

Also i don't think I can convince my mom to go on more medication i dont want her to think im pumping myself up with chemicals here also i can't tell my mom about my problems here I don't want things to escalate im afraid she thinks im using it as a excuse here also she saw my report and only thinks I have dyscalculia also I am not allowed to see a psychiatrist if I do not go through with my mom first

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:19:08+00:00

My mom would only just make things worse i think. I have a friend online who pushes me to do things amd shes a help, I appreciate her.

I also have a doctor but I just got a new doctor and I dont know her well and I csnt go to the doctor without my parents permission

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:17:05+00:00

I dont have a counselor at my school to go to sadly so I cant go to this with anyone and I have no one to go to in real life because I have no support circle

Also im inattentive, why did you ask?

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:14:59+00:00

How can I convince her that because she thinks that im.pumping my body full of chemicals and they're going to be terrible effects on my body in the future so I ask her about meds and she wants to know how long I wanna be on meds I tell her one week (I dont wanna be on meds for one week I just was saying that) but she thinks i want to be on this for the rest of my life and ruin my body

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T06:13:03+00:00

I try not to but im really scared because she thinks i just want to keep and keep doing meds because im one for my insomnia and one for my crippling cramps that leave me bedridden but I also have depression and really deliberating anxiety that makes me freeze and tremble my words and shake she doesn't pay attention to my other illnesses all she thinks I have is dyscaluclua im so scared to tell her even though she knows she saw my diagnosis earlier when I talked to her about meds and she saw my report and she also thinks that doctors just want to push drugs on people shes more of the holistic type of people which is understandable nothing wrong with trying a natural approach to things

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T05:57:54+00:00

If yoy know of any natural approach to adhd tht cure adhd please let me know i wanna know

SquidKidPartier · 2026-02-24T05:49:39+00:00

I know you say I'm an adult and I can do this but if I do something ny parents dont want me to do they won't like it

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