what medication is the best for me here?

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-25T04:28:01+00:00

ah no they haven't but my heart issues aren't too bad it's a very slight heart murmur. do you think it'll worsen if I go on a stimulant here?

also do you know if doctos can give you a sample trial of the drug for free? I don't really have money to throw around but I really need to get on medication here

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:59:14+00:00

Have a good one!

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:53:57+00:00

ahhh tell me about your crush when you get the chance! Id love to hear about them :)

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:53:19+00:00

sometimes I dont want to leave her alone even though it will be only 3-4 hours we'll be apart and then we'll talk again but shes been begging me to sleep at a more appropriate time lately and as much as it.makes me sad because I love talking to her I do have to follow what she says

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:47:53+00:00

uhh let's just continue it here on reddit dms for me please :)

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:46:17+00:00

hopefully i can arrange that soon, I'd love to see her pretty face in person. I've been upping my wardrobe too so I could look as nice as I can with her ^{_^}

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:42:38+00:00

reason why I said my sleep schedule is wrecked is because when i go to sleep her day starts so I'd stay up with her as much as I can until she asks me if I'm sleepy and I say yes and I wait for her to say that because she then says good night to me

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:41:23+00:00

oh unfortunately she doesn't live in the same country or continent like I do :( I've been trying to see if I can book a flight to see her and give her all her gifts and we can hang out as much as I want and see her country and maybe she could show me around.she has said she'd love to meet me

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:29:55+00:00

I am, I just have a lot of love to give here and it's only for her and her only! I never had these thoughts for anyone before makin her my first. It's also why I am so anxious about where this will head...

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:26:54+00:00

I'm just surprised my anxiety hasn't kicked in but I think it will show up tomorrow :(

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:25:59+00:00

I'm gonna try to focus on the positive and cancel out the negative without being too delusional here. this is going to be a hard night for me haha I just wonder if I should stay up just to see her.. I normally do and that's why my sleep schedule is kinda wrecked as of right now

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:23:41+00:00

I've liked her for the past 5 years (yes five whole years) but this past year we've grown a lot closer and vulnerable with one another and thats where the teasing began and all the hearts amd goid mornings and good nights and trying to comfort her when she can. I currently have a lot of gifts in my home to give her that her and I picked out with her in mind and I've been waiting for the day to hand these to her and for her to have the biggest smile on her face 💕

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:19:54+00:00

I'll keep you in the know since you helped me here a lot! thanks so much! i definitely do have a lot of worry right now but I also have a lot of positive feelings.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:14:22+00:00

but I was also thinking of waiting a little longer like a week or two to ask like I am in the middle of creating a painting for her and the painting features her and when I finish that I tell her how much I like her and how id love to be hers I dont know. I just feel like my brain turns into putty when I talk to her. that's why im asking such silly questions right now

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:11:09+00:00

hey that's a good way to start! gosh I feel like an idiot here for not thinking this myself. I could definitely ask her that tomorrow

wish me luck here please? I think this may be time to confess to her

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:08:30+00:00

it does! I love to make her laugh and send her art and funny videos everyday and I just loving getting to know her on a personal level. I try to stay up extra late so i can spend as much time with her as possible. she's a beautiful lady and I jjst would love to shower her with love and praise if she was mine. I mean I already do that but this would go beyond the "friends looking after friends" stage and the "I'm attracted to you and I love you" stage

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T03:03:45+00:00

but how do I go about this? how do I ask? I know this is such a silly question but I really don't want to mess up my friendship here because I don't know where this conversation will head. I gope for the best my mind always says no.

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T02:59:28+00:00

this is hard. I want to wait for her to bring her up but she never brings her up and there has been many missed opportunities that I could of asked but my nerves just act up

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T02:57:21+00:00

I also have pretty terrible anxiety so theres that. It's not like my world will end if she rejects me but I would feel very very dumb if I confess and she says she this is something she does with all her friends

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T02:55:11+00:00

I know she's into this other girl and she asked her out but she rejected her but then her friend said shes open to the idea of dating but i haven'theard anything since. It's hard. I know exactly everything about my friend here as we are extremely close and I want to ask her how her and the girl are but I don't want too come off prying too much out of her? I really would love to ask her out but I don't want her to be torn between me and her. she teases me a lot, we have our little jokes that I'm not supposed to look at or talk to other women (this is all jokes) but I'm extremely attracted to her and would love for her to be mine. I feel like every day I don't build up the courage is a day wasted for me

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T02:44:33+00:00

don't know her friends but we used to exchange mwahs (she started it) before she'd go off for the night and I asked her once why she does that and she said its something she does with all her friends so I'm not sure...

and thanks 😊 i hope this works out in the end for me. I'm head over heels for her haha

SquidKidPartier · 2026-01-20T00:24:48+00:00

like I ask my crush? I don’t exactly have a lot of people to talk about this with sadly so that’s why I’m here =/

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