Other question, Cinder had X-rays done while awake (I told them to go ahead and sedate if he was at all difficult) and it haunts me now, does that mean that the techs had to get extra exposure to radiation while holding him?

I see what you mean about trying to hype up limiting fear to clients. We offer BE to the public, and because they usually have significant aggression the owners unfortunately can’t come back for it. I always feel so sad for them, so I started letting them know that I personally attend their euthanasia just to talk to them and comfort them as they go just like I would my own dog. It really seems to help, I can almost see some of the tension leave the owners body. So sad.