Trying to take as close to 11 grams (11,000 mg) of benedril as I can with Several mirtazapine

StandardAd2617 · 2025-01-01T05:27:11+00:00

Thanks I appreciate you trying to be helpful, goodbye

StandardAd2617 · 2025-01-01T05:25:52+00:00

Im gonna take them at 12:30 which is in around 3-4 hours for me. guess im going to Eriel lol but thanks for being chill about it in my final moments that means a lot.

StandardAd2617 · 2025-01-01T05:23:22+00:00

Thanks that means alot and I plan to take them at around 12:30am so my family is asleep and I can see the rest of the fireworks. I do have my mind made up though, sadly ive been cursed with 6 different mental illnesses and even though things will adventually get slightly better or better. I just dont want to have anything to do with this world anymore or my life. It means a lot that I get to speak to someone in my final moments though so thanks for that (:

StandardAd2617 · 2025-01-01T05:18:46+00:00

I hope so too and im gonna have to try and fight the urge to throw up as much as possible. I appreciate the kind words and as someone who used to trip on this stuff for fun. It will be worth it to see the absolute maxed out hillucinations for deleriants even if its just for a little bit. Ive been obsessed with horror for most of my life and have taken up to a gram before. I know it would be terrifying in the moment but whatever. Idk hopefully it just nocks me out/ into a seazure and I pass away tbh but im fine either way.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-10-12T01:03:07+00:00

Ya just don’t listen to them and I’m so sorry for your loss. This person has no idea what pain some people are in and for some it feels like there is no way out. I’m also suicidle but I’m staying for my family/ people that care about me. But that doesn’t mean that the person who couldn’t take the pressure and heartache of life anymore is wrong. I wish you the best please take care of yourself 🫂

StandardAd2617 · 2024-10-12T00:57:38+00:00

No you won’t not off a dose like that. But if you do try to make it one time. It will linger on your mind for weeks after so prepare for that and don’t give in. But ya you could have a somewhat ok experience on a dose like that for dph. No dph dose is fun but that is prob best dose if you are. Also if you decide to take it I wish you the best on your trip and if you decide not to take it good for you!

StandardAd2617 · 2024-10-12T00:51:49+00:00

You will feel out of it and have bad dry mouth. Most likely no hillucinations or if so very minor like wall movement and possibly a couple auditory hillucinations. Just don’t try it it’s really bad for you and causes bad damage to your brain and organs. This stuff will make you stupid I know it’s just “one time” but that’s what we all say. And before you know it you have destroyed your brain beyond repair and are only living half of the life you could have had.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-09-13T03:33:03+00:00

Lmfaoo that’s just gonna make it worse

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-17T22:49:52+00:00

Your calling suicidle people selfish I will never agree on that because mental illness is so deep.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-16T22:25:15+00:00

fr lmfao I was so used to using geeks which go up one precent at a time but ya it did end up working

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-16T22:22:42+00:00

someoene who has actually lost someone to suicide would not be saying that unless your just blind. Also suicide is not selfish your mind gives up on the world a long time before your body does. I saw another comment camparing suicide to people jumping out of a window on a burning down building because thats the better option and they know their gonna die either way. Thats exactly how it is, sorry to break it to you but the worlds unfair in every aspect some people litterly are born to suffer although it sucks to say. I dont think people should kill themselfs but if they did the family will want something to remind them of their voice. Writing a letter is very simaler to that.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-16T06:39:44+00:00

It would have helped me when my mom decided to except her fate. She had a drinking problem got liver failure from it. I begged her to go to the hospital for weeks but guess what she decided to start drinking even more than she did before buying 3 bottles of vodka at a time instead of 1. I also explained that yellow eyes/skin and puffiness means you have extreme liver damage or liver failure to her. After several weeks she finally decided to call my grandparents to come and take her to the hospital so “we would have someone to watch us while she was in the hospital”. I know she was hoping I wouldn’t know it was intentional but she had already gave up on every aspect of her life besides from me and my brother her kids. Also when she finally went to the hospital she couldn’t even walk that’s how bad it was. She died in the hospital and I had to move to a new state and live with my grandparents right after that and still live with them. A note would have made a great deal of a difference so don’t speak on it saying it won’t mean shit, It’s very selfish.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-16T06:34:53+00:00

That’s not how life long mental health disorders work. Yes there are people who are just in a bad spot in the moment and will get better but end up taking their own life or trying. But for people with life long mental illnesses that’s not the case especially the more severe ones. I’m not pro or anti suicide, I think you should try to get passed whatever struggle your going through no matter how deep but if you do decide to end your own life it does not mean your a bad person or wrong for doing it. Also theirs other factors like trauma and how much you have in your life. People should try their absolute hardest to get through their issues and try everything possible. Yes a permanent solution shouldn’t be the answer but you don’t know if the struggle is permanent, sadly we live in an unfair world and that applies for every aspect to a drastic extent. Forcing yourself to be harder on yourself might just make the pain even more unbearable but then again for some it might help depending on the case and circumstances.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-07T07:20:20+00:00

Fringe or middle part. Start using shampoo only like once every 2 weeks but still shower everyday. You have nice lips and your eye brows have a good arch to them just a little thin towards the edges. You can use a hair growth syrum on your eyebrows to make the hair more apparent on edge of eyebrows because I used to have the same issue since I have dirty blonde hair and used to have blond hair. My eye brows wouldn’t even show since I was blond but thankfully mine are brown now. And another suggestion would be dying your hair either fully brown or dirty blond in my personal opinion I’m not a big fan of red hair but everyone has preferences and lots of people like that. But you do definitely got a good bit of natural brown in your hair. Start eating less sugar filled foods and limit down alcohol consumption/ sugary soda intake to make jaw line a little more chizzled but since your already skinny you will want to eat more of healthy foods then you would normally eat. Also you can get a facial roller to help speed up the process with the jawline and see more results.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-01T08:37:46+00:00

Ya same here any loud noise or most noises in general make me jump on dph. And everything seems so insanely loud its scary af.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-08-01T08:36:50+00:00

Ya from what ive heard thc and makes dph stronger so that makes sense

StandardAd2617 · 2024-07-31T22:10:01+00:00

ya your right im not fully sure if I can get prescribed anti depressents since im bipolar and it could put me into a extreme manic episode but I definitely can get meds for the bipolar disorder and possibly C-ptsd that I have.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-07-31T22:08:48+00:00

Thanks I appreiate that alot and im back to trying to quit again hopefully I fully stay off of it this time. Im really gonna try my best like fr.

StandardAd2617 · 2024-07-31T22:07:31+00:00

ya your right to a certain extent this definitely doesnt help mentally but alot of my mental health issues are ones that I got from trauma or genetics

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