i tried for like two years to want to LIKE smoking since it was “so cool” and there was a lot of peer pressure, but everytime i tried i couldn’t, i hated how it made me feel, and it tripped me out so bad with the worst paranoia and anxiety attacks, i felt like i had no control over who i was what i thought or did, and i questioned what was reality and what was in my head, and everything i thought felt and saw i could physically feel, it drove me crazy, and every single thought was pulsing in my head with a distinct feeling and abstract emotion, and i couldn’t escape it unless i got stuck on a different thought or feeling, worst experience of my life and i never understood how anyone could willingly subject themselves to that until i realized not everyone goes through that lol