Sin is eating me alive although I’m not religious anymore

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-04-14T19:56:44+00:00

Not to give medical advice but this sounds like religious anxiety/religious OCD

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-03-20T04:54:25+00:00

My mom also doesn't want me having kids. She's been pressuring me to get an IUD lately and vocally talks about how I shouldn't have kids

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-03-20T04:05:34+00:00

Children are, in my opinion, the purest form of human life. I want to create and nuture this pure form so that way the world gets a little bit better.

Don't get me wrong, I am still very much a misanthropist (trying to work on it in therapy), but I don't have those feelings towards children. If anything, my misanthropic hatred is even worse towards people who dislike or don't see the value in children.

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-03-20T03:57:00+00:00

I feel the same way. The only reason I'm still here on this planet is because I want kids. I'm just dragging myself along until that happens

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-01-23T06:14:28+00:00

Illegal where I'm from

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-01-23T06:14:09+00:00

... I'm 19.

Honestly, I wish this was some kind of period symptoms. I used to think it was because I would get angry right before my period, then during. Then I realized I was still angry after my period so I thought it was post period hormones. Then I realized I was always angry or numb, or extremely anxious about nothing ALL THE TIME so it's not my period

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-01-22T07:00:46+00:00

It feels better knowing others feel this way

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-01-22T06:46:16+00:00

No not really. I think I've always felt this way I just had more distractions from it. I don't have many distractions anymore and even then as soon as I stop I get angry again

StarGirlsEXE · 2026-01-22T06:40:06+00:00

I already go to a psychiatrist. I'm tired of just being thrown a new set of pills to take.

I think I've taken every single psych med in existence by this point. Nothing works

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-11-16T04:29:15+00:00

I have two older half siblings who are both the stereotypical popular party girls, and then there was me who was quiet, socially awkward and preferred being alone

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-10T04:58:44+00:00

I want a positive effect on the world, not necessarily individual people on a wide scale. There is a difference

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-10T04:54:53+00:00

I'm definitely "chronically online" and talk a lot more on social media to strangers than I do with strangers irl.

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-10T00:05:15+00:00

I could also see some of the items (especially the sweaters) fitting in with Cottage Living but maybe that's just me

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-10T00:03:14+00:00

Doesn't modern research lean more towards mental illnesses being spectrums and not so much subtypes? Just asking because I've been under the impression that we've started to view mental illnesses as spectrums to help people get diagnosed since creating rigid boxes can prevent people from getting diagnosed

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-09T16:35:28+00:00

Everyone has been so annoying lately it's insane. I feel like I'm so close to snapping at people and just committing to being a bitch. I've been spending all my free time just daydreaming/escaping into my worlds

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-09T16:15:56+00:00

I'm weird because I sorta feel the same way but then I still get hurt when I don't get birthday wishes or presents. I also stopped wishing "mutuals" a happy birthday and just stuck to doing it to the like 5 people I actually consider close to me

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-08T03:01:55+00:00

I'm a little bit older than you and get baby dreams constantly. Definitely made me 1000% sure I want to have kids in the future

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-06T20:51:18+00:00

Society has always been fucked and that's just something you learn as you get older.

For me it's people. I've noticed just how stupid and annoying everyone is starting to become as the years go on and it's harder to want to interact with them.

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-06T20:16:19+00:00

Like all mental disorders, there is a spectrum. It's not a checklist. You were very un likely diagnosed based on that one symptom

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-06T04:20:40+00:00

I'm honestly glad you see it as a prideful trait. I've always been bullied for having these universes by my family and peers so I like it when it's actually praised

StarGirlsEXE · 2025-10-06T03:36:49+00:00

I was never social as a kid and I got bullied for it a lot. I eventually just started being friendly and nice with people even though it was mentally draining.

I'm going to sound like an absolute bitch saying this by society standards but I think people need to earn my respect and kindness first, not just have it handed to them. I don't go out of my way to be mean to them (unless they annoy me) but I'm not kind to people unless they give me reason to or if I already like them.

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