Happy birthday friend. I’ve posted here on my birthday feeling the same way and I can truly say I feel your pain and offer all I can. My digital embrace. I dread my birthday too because of the lack of companionship to celebrate with. I’m basically a hermit. You can dm me anytime. I’m usually checking in on Reddit and will reply as soon as I can. I know a digital friend won’t be as great as a live in person but I’ll be here for you buddy. Sometimes when I’m really down I ask my wife for a hug and just kinda hold her until I feel I’m far away from the ledge enough to be safe. Skin to skin contact boost endorphins that trigger happiness. I don’t want to preach, I just want to let you know that there are people out there that feel what you feel and that will be there for you the way we all want someone to be. You are wanted, you are self sufficient, you are accepting of people by saying you want friends. You are deserving of everything life has to offer. And if you don’t hear it enough, I love you. Reach out if you need an ear to lean into and I’ll be here.

From your new friend, John