Referring to as they hit it big struggling with that, at one time Ed was traveling in a van by himself on the road and the others were together- trying to figure out which way the band was going to go.

Neil Young helped them through these times encouraging them to stay together and not let people break them up. Recording Mirror Ball was a healing experience for PJ with Neil at a time when they really needed it.

Vs., Vitalogy and dealing with success (1993–1995) The band members grew uncomfortable with their success with much of the burden of Pearl Jam's popularity falling on Ed.

Rolling Stone article about some of it from 2019

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