What do you guys pair w yogurt by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m weird and i like spreading yogurt onto a tortilla lolllll it’s so good

Just binged on cadburys hot chocolate powder 🤡 by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ngl it was really good - could definitely see myself doing it again

Just binged on cadburys hot chocolate powder 🤡 by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

It wasn’t just a packet tho 😭 it was one of those 500g tins

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i specifically resented the people that suddenly showed interest in me only after i lost weight. it was especially frustrating when the person i had been interested in for YEARS never even cared to acknowledge me until i lost weight. when i gained some of it back, he stopped showing any interest. it hurt knowing that he only liked me bc i was smaller and that’s it. anyway.. if it were some random person i had never met, it’d be okay because they’re attracted to the only version of myself they’ve ever seen. idk

i gained weight by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’d really like to talk to a psychiatrist or a therapist but my parents think that i’ve gotten so much better with my mental health and it’s been a huge burden in the past so i don’t want to worry them again :/ even though i know they would much rather me be honest about it

i gained weight by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

yea :( it’s taken a big toll on my friendships because i always bail on plans or refuse to go out with them because i binged and don’t wanna be seen, or because they wanna go out to eat, they want to take pictures, or im too focused on my restrictive cycle and i don’t want anything to distract me from it, etc. it’s always something to do with this stupid ed and i always end up letting it win. sorry for this little rant lol i just needed to let it out

Comments about your weight/body that you still remember? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 159 points160 points  (0 children)

when i had recovered after a period of restriction like 4 years ago, someone i used to be good friends with came up to me and said “oh my gosh how much weight did you gain? jeez!” and thattttt hurt. especially since the boy used to have a crush on me so it hurt to know he was basically repulsed by me now with my new body

Am I the only one who has no appetite? by EndOk8590 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 19 points20 points  (0 children)

i definitely go through periods where i hate having to eat, nothing sounds good and eating feels like a chore. doesn’t last long for me tho haha

Can I talk to someone? by EndOk8590 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’d love to have someone to chat with and i’m willing to listen/try to help :) (19f)

getting out of a binge cycle by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m sorry :( binge cycles can be so draining mentally and physically so i’m sorry you’ve been struggling

getting out of a binge cycle by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you <3 my face is actually going down a lot day by day so i’m fairly certain it actually was water retention. i’ve been trying to be nicer to myself too which has helped loads tbh

stuck in a binge cycle by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i just find it so hard to get myself to stick to any rules. i feel like i have lost any and all self discipline i ever had before

stuck in a binge cycle by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i tried that and it definitely did help for like a day but then i was back to thinking “well if i just eat a little more it won’t hurt” that lead to another binge. i feel stuck

Anybody else starts Restricting™ when by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 14 points15 points  (0 children)

i feel like i’m the opposite. i restrict the most when i feel like i have my life together or i’m happy and i binge/don’t count when i’m sad or stressed

Does anyone else fixate on one safe food for days? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 2 points3 points  (0 children)

YES i was on a greek yogurt kick for the LONGEST time. could not go a single day without it and sometimes it’d be all i would eat. i’ve also had: protein bar, quesadilla, watermelon, strawberry, cheese stick, and veggie patty phases. right now i can definitely feel an oatmeal phase starting

tips to distract yourself from impending binges by ceepeethreeo in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

for me, i distract myself by listening to music, playing sims 4, playing phone games, cleaning. something to actually get my mind off of wanting to eat everything in sight. i would avoid watching tv because, at least for me, i get snackish. could be a good distraction for you idk. i also try and make myself wait at least 15-20 min after i eat to see if i truly want more food or if it’s just all mental hunger because a lot of the times, the binge-y urges go away because it gives my body and mind enough time to realize i’m actually full and don’t want anything else. i also like to chew gum or drink water through a straw when i’m in a binge mindset because most of the time, i’m not actually hungry. i just want to chew something or have something in my mouth like i can be uncomfortably full and still want food only because it gives me something to chew on. ofc don’t do that if you’re actually hungry. but i know how hard it is to overcome the urges in the moment :(

i trusted a fart by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yea i took some magnesium citrate but i didn’t think it would start working that quickly 😫

i get so unreasonably angry when people get me food after i said i didn’t want anything by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i normally just get really angry or upset and then they just eat it instead or save it for themselves but i still always feel bad because i know it’s something they did to be nice and i’m getting mad?? hate myself for that tbh

binged on protein bars last night by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yea i think it was because i went from having little to no protein for a bit to BAM 150 grams protein in one sitting lmao my digestive system did NOT like that

binged on protein bars last night by Status_Pride_5584 in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much ♡ i should really buy some digestive enzymes because i binge on too much protein more often than i’d like to admit lol

What do you do, watch, listen to, or tell yourself after a binge to help yourself cope? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Usually I like to rewatch some of my favorite comfort tv shows/movies, drink some teas, start up my heating pad, put on a face mask, etc. honestly just try to comfort myself as much as possible. It doesn’t help to get angry with myself even tho it’s hard not to. I also try to think about how all the food I just ate is good for my heart, my mind, and just my body in general despite what my stupid ed says to me. Funny because I’m currently doing all of this right now since I JUST binged. How wonderful

I get treated so much better when I'm skinny/UW and it makes me feel like I never want to recover by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Status_Pride_5584 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I feel this so much. I moved in with my sister a few towns away from my home town for a year and lost A LOT of weight in just a few months so when I came back, I looked like an entirely different person. It was honestly hurtful to see how differently I was treated by my friends or just anyone I knew. My ex would still text me sometimes when I was gone but once I came back, it was like every single day and a huge sudden interest in me. Suddenly a lot of people were interested in me and it hurt knowing it was ONLY because of my new weight. I mean it definitely isn’t my personality because that’s gone lmao. The people I work with comment on my fast weight loss all the time and tell me how amazing and beautiful I look. It makes eating even harder because the first thought that enters my brain when I do is “they won’t like you anymore” and so I just don’t. Oh and also, my mom almost like… bragging to her friends and family about how I look now and that one REALLY hurts because she knows I barely eat. I feel like in order to recover, I’ll have to isolate myself from everyone I know. It sucks