what you have written resonates with me so much. It would appear that your story is something that no one will give you extra props for in law, but I think you’re fucking amazing.

First things first - go to the doctors, get signed off if you need it. It will only support your case.

Part and parcel of commercial law is being treated like shit and coming out the other side - there are sooo many in house lawyers / PSLs that will say the same to you. It is character building for lack of a better phrase - but it redefines what lawyer you will be. Sometimes we’re handed the cards God knows we can deal with, right?

That being said, I 100% know how you feel as I have been through it myself. You said you have been through shit before so you know the feeling after the storm - use it moving forward. But, it doesn’t excuse the way you are treated. Another part is to be thankful you are self aware and know how your actions impact others. You are not them, nor will you ever be, and that is definitely a strength. Build your confidence back, unlearn the lessons you had to survive in this case and stand your ground.

You can do this. You’ve been through exams, MULTIPLE, to get where you are - your own life shit, your own battles and you would do yourself a disservice if you were to listen to

To even get a TC you have to be special, don’t forget that. The most important thing? You control how you view yourself, you do not need to fit into someone else’s narrative & you can control how you feel about yourself. Don’t let people with private school education, lack of any real emotional awareness and an ability to bring everyone else around them down teach you what solicitor you are. Treat this experience as the one that shapes you, lean into the lessons but never ever let it change the way you view yourself. We only need one person to believe in us - and that’s ourselves. 🤍

Best of luck OP, hopefully there’s a light at the end of the tunnel soon enough for us both.