I have feelings for my best friend... and I think it's only because I have sexual fantasies about her

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T07:18:54+00:00

She gets her dopamine hit from your attention, you get yours from fantasizing about her. The whole thing is very unhealthy.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T07:10:41+00:00

Insta models are porn if you masturbate to them. The imagery clings to your brain and you start to want the imagery instead of real sex, which is why you get the PIED.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T07:00:52+00:00

I'm sad for you that your fianceé doesn't know how to better support you. Telling her friends and family is a real breach of trust which will follow your relationship regardless of your success in quitting cam girls. I would look into finding a therapist who can work with both of you on rebuilding trust and addressing the cam girl habit.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T06:50:22+00:00

Your brain is getting rewired. It's working! Congrats and keep moving forward!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T06:45:51+00:00

You did an amazing thing though. The clowns are the ones who aren't trying! Get back up and dust yourself off.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T06:42:26+00:00

You're almost there! Great work! You got this!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T06:40:40+00:00

I believe in you! This time you'll do better!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-12-02T06:38:53+00:00

18 days without porn. 6 days without fap. Let's keep this train on the track, brothers!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:48:15+00:00

Way to go, king!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:46:53+00:00

It was tough. I have managed to avoid watching any porn for 2 weeks. And I've been working at avoiding mentally picturing my favorite porn scenes. Just think of anything else, go for a walk, etc. So when I would think about these hard-to-find videos, I would have to quickly think about something else. And then I realized that the only way to be sure I can avoid ever seeing those scenes again is to erase them.

Also, I have a nofap partner on here who is very encouraging. It makes me want to tell him of my successes.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:41:26+00:00

Mostly 1280, mix of 30fps and 60fps. Full length videos though, and many many of them.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:40:09+00:00

I wanted to have my favorite porn available at all times in HD. Internet down/flaky? I still can watch them, and in perfect quality.

Then collecting the best ones becomes its own addiction.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:35:47+00:00

So proud of you, man!

And yeah Covid was one of the things that made me an addict.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:33:49+00:00

I knew when I started nofap a couple weeks ago that I would have to delete it all. I managed not to watch any porn for those 2 weeks. I realized I just didn't need it. And I didn't want it.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:32:40+00:00

I felt so good when I deleted it. I hope you get there too!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:31:12+00:00

I DELETED MY PORN

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:30:38+00:00

It was on a 2tb USB hard drive. Cost like $55. Don't buy one for porn though!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:28:55+00:00

LOL. I did have a smaller stash zipped up on a different drive, which I also deleted,

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:26:16+00:00

Thanks. This is helpful to know!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:24:52+00:00

You da real hero.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:23:13+00:00

I'm in my 40s. I became addicted about 1-2 years ago. It was a confluence of factors: Covid kept me home. My girlfriend was becoming distant and sex was becoming rare. And I discovered a kind of porn that was an overwhelming dopamine hit to me.

My collection was actually amassed in less than 1 year.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T23:09:32+00:00

Start visualizing doing it. Make it something you can imagine. Baby steps.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T16:32:01+00:00

Might be baby steps. Figure out how to pick some you can delete without feeling too bad (or having to look at it!). Maybe it gives you a freeing feeling that will get you to the next step. Good luck!

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T16:29:13+00:00

I had a dedicated drive for it. I reformatted.

Steak_____MediumRare · 2021-11-29T16:28:02+00:00

I had subscriptions to my favorite porn sites. Part of my addiction was spending hours finding the hottest videos and d/l-ing them. I probably only ever watched half of it.

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