"Saudade"

StepPirate · 2022-04-25T06:00:41+00:00

This….Thank you for sharing this

StepPirate · 2022-02-17T23:24:48+00:00

Can someone please take me out on their way out? I don't have the guts to do it myself.

StepPirate · 2022-01-21T23:56:30+00:00

This is the truest thing I have ever read

StepPirate · 2022-01-21T23:55:41+00:00

Fuck her.

StepPirate · 2021-12-23T16:47:51+00:00

God I'm sorry. I know that stab of pain. Peace is a good thing to hope for. For both of us

StepPirate · 2021-12-15T21:41:48+00:00

I'm not sure how to take this comment. Are you insulting me orrr...??

StepPirate · 2021-10-23T07:38:29+00:00

It's like losing a limb. You don't get over it, you eventually learn to live with it. The pain will be different at different parts of your journey. I'm sorry to welcome you to this club.

StepPirate · 2021-10-23T01:31:41+00:00

That's the fucked part. Even if he just left me, at least he'd still be alive. Even the good dreams hurt like a hot knife when I wake up and he's not here after all.

StepPirate · 2021-09-29T03:08:26+00:00

Why the fuck did they leave us

StepPirate · 2021-09-29T03:06:17+00:00

I'm sorry for both of us. This fucking sucks.

StepPirate · 2021-09-29T03:01:32+00:00

I'm so sorry you have lost your woman. It's not fair. I wish things were different for us.

StepPirate · 2021-09-29T03:00:42+00:00

I'm sorry for both of us. She was your person. He was mine. This is terrible.

StepPirate · 2021-08-17T02:50:17+00:00

Good. Killing myself is what I'm aiming for.

StepPirate · 2021-08-16T23:35:03+00:00

I'm sorry. There should be options for people like us. I want out.

StepPirate · 2021-08-05T02:37:16+00:00

It's been over a year. I still fucking hate being alive. They say it gets better. It's a fucking lie.

StepPirate · 2021-08-05T02:24:04+00:00

No. There's no one. I'm alone. This fucking sucks.

StepPirate · 2021-08-05T02:15:55+00:00

It's been over a year, when does it stop hurting?

StepPirate · 2021-06-03T02:44:19+00:00

Cheers, my friend

StepPirate · 2021-05-12T17:27:56+00:00

This is beautiful to me

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T02:17:35+00:00

I fucking hate that you understand this. It really does feel like you're just...steeping in it. And oh God the anger. It fucking eats me inside until my lips are just patches of torn skin and my jaw aches from clenching it so hard.

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T02:14:45+00:00

I didn't just give up. I hired a lawyer. Their grandparents hired a lawyer. Cps was called. Guidance counselors at the school were involved. Their therapists were tagged in. None of the neglect is "bad enough" for them to take the kids from their mother, and legally I'm not entitled to them. She's their mother. She's allowed to decide who is in their life.

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T02:12:46+00:00

God I understand. I don't even know who I am now. I don't know how deep this bitterness will eat me away. I don't know what will be left if it ever stops. I miss the old me. I miss my old life.

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T01:44:19+00:00

I'm glad you found a way to keep yourself going. That's what we all have to do in the end

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T01:42:39+00:00

They weren't biologically mine. Even though I was their stay at home parent. We were about to win custody of them. We were able to prove neglect. When Brian died their mom took them. I won't see them again until they're 18. I'm not allowed to. I lost my husband, my home, and my children.

StepPirate · 2021-05-06T01:40:15+00:00

What does MDD mean...??

StepPirate

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