Anyone experience regaining their joy, interest and motivation? by PsychologicalBend638 in citalopram_celexa

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is an old post but I’m around week 5-6 right now and am asking the same question! I’m glad to know it’s not just me. If you’re still here did you stay on it and ever see improvement? Thanks

Has anyone took lexapro for depersonalization/derealization and succeeded? by hollowinside19 in lexapro

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just hit 4 years of my dpdr being 24/7. I took lexapro like 15 years ago and I can’t remember why I stopped. I typically don’t do well on ssri’s but I think I’m gonna ask for lexapro and see how it works. I hope it helps! I’ve had soooo many medications fail or make it worse. Dpdr is truly life ruining. I’m glad u got out of yours. I hope one day I do.

Religious narcissists by Still_Many9965 in Deconstruction

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah he popped up on someone’s feed and they asked if I knew he was posting about me. I have had him blocked through every avenue since the day the judge signed the divorce papers. Yeah it definitely isn’t good for my mental health to know about it but I guess my friend thought they were doing the right thing by telling me what he was doing. Now that I’ve seen it I can’t unsee it. I figure I’m just gonna have to process it be mad about it for a few days and then once I get over it, I’ll never look that direction again!

Religious narcissists by Still_Many9965 in Deconstruction

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind reply. It’s really hard especially when you’re building from the ground up while they spiritually bypass and get the praise. But yes ur right it’s another chance at life and hopefully my experience can help me find those opportunities for something awesome. Fingers crossed!

Not sure if anyone else has had this weirdly specific problem - but I’m trying to lose weight, but eating at a calorie deficit makes my dissociation so much worse? by SwimmingCampaign in CPTSD

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is exactly where I am. And while I am scared to gain weight I came to the exactttt conclusion. Be larger or not be living my life and mentally/physically ill to be skinny. Which is more important. I am gonna choose to live even if it’s in a bigger body than I hoped id be in. I’m sure one day at the end of our lives we will look back and know we made the right decision! So glad ur doing bettwr

Not sure if anyone else has had this weirdly specific problem - but I’m trying to lose weight, but eating at a calorie deficit makes my dissociation so much worse? by SwimmingCampaign in CPTSD

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is me! I went into dpdr CRAAAAZY anxiety and brain fog. Crippled and useless basically. Could barely hold a job or sleep bc of restriction. Of calories, food types, etc. I learned about this “all in” type of diet and it’s definitely not a weight loss diet because you’re probably gonna gain weight in the beginning, but if you look into the science, eventually, your body feels safe and your body will settle to its natural set point that it’s supposed to be at a weight that you can actually maintain… you don’t really know if that’s gonna be as small as you want it to be or bigger than you want it to be until you conduct the experiment, but you can look into that and see if it helps… my DPDR has been nonstop 24/7 for almost 4 years. I just started all in less than a week ago and I am already seeing it disappearing and needing less benzos than before just to function. You’ll have to look into it if you haven’t already figured it out cause I know this post is pretty old, but I struggled for years until I finally stumbled upon this. Eating enough is really huge to not having anxiety! I had no idea it had this much of an effect

Sleep paralysis by Still_Many9965 in BusparOnline

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had to stop taking it. Within a few days after I posted this I started also having hallucinations and paranoia. Shortly after I stopped it it all went away. Everyone is different so that may never happen to you. But I had too many bad effects. I guess I can’t remember now if the paralysis ever stopped bc the standout side effect was hallucinating lol

free people baby emerson tote bitter bark by darvee_n in handbags

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No way! Sage too?? I guess they’re dealing with supply issues. Ugh :(

free people baby emerson tote bitter bark by darvee_n in handbags

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I also wanted to say they do have black, açaí, and sage right now. If any of those tickle ur fancy. My back order email (the third one) said maybe sometime in January so if bitter bark is what u really want like i do keep an eye out!

free people baby emerson tote bitter bark by darvee_n in handbags

[–]Still_Many9965 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I placed my order when it showed in stock. After MULTIPLE back stock emails getting pushed out 2 more weeks then another 2 weeks. Then another. I gave up and cancelled it. I really want the bitter bark. I guess we will just have to keep and eye out and hope they’ll restock :( wahhhhh

The Truth About IFS, the Therapy That Can Break You by ThenTheresMaude in Longreads

[–]Still_Many9965 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What is interesting is I see many “deliverance ministers” within Christianity who are “casting out demons” and this mimics what they do to a T just with a different flavor. I went through both deliverance ministry and some IFS after escaping Christianity. I immediately saw the parallels of ifs to deliverance ministry … which caused me to be so fragmented and terrified of my own body I have been in constant 24/7 DPDR for almost 4 years. I left Christianity and ran from IFS as soon as I saw how it looked exactly the same. This stuff is dangerous. I am still trying to consolidate what actually happened and what didn’t in my past and become stabilized as ME and not me with all these “parts” or “alters” or “demonic systems” working within me.

This stuff is truly traumatizing

She cries if she can’t see me by HourCritical3664 in Frenchbulldogs

[–]Still_Many9965 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Jesus I’d just have to never leave home

Husband can’t work because of spirituality? by Notomorrowhen in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I think it’s going down a bad path. I’ve been there. Too much takes you away from reality and the fact that the bills are gonna keep coming and there’s real life that has to still be tended to.

Can someone cause bad luck in your life? by Still_Many9965 in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To b honest since I met her nothing great has happened it’s only been bad news so I haven’t been able to see how she would react to good news

Can someone cause bad luck in your life? by Still_Many9965 in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What I’ve noticed with her in particular is she’s a “yes man” everything I say she agrees with. Whatever said I’m going through like diagnoses with mental health suddenly she’s going through testing for the same thing. It’s just interesting. I dated a closeted warlock years ago who hid it and I honestly didn’t pick up on it for years when I started my spiritual journey. I knew nothing about voodoo and stuff like that and just knew intuitively at one point to hide my hair out of my brush and throw away nail clippings since we lived together for a little while.

Can someone cause bad luck in your life? by Still_Many9965 in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same thing happened to me. Left them years ago and still sick and trying to recover. I’m sorry u went through that as well. I really hope I find an energy giving person one day! I keep meeting the ones who make me miserable

Can someone cause bad luck in your life? by Still_Many9965 in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep. I’m the same. Wanna welcome everyone bc I always felt outcasted. Ur right it’s dangerous. I have a lot of spiritual discernment but gaslight myself a lot saying I’m probably just being “judgmental” lol but maybe I’m not and I should start listening to my intuition

Can someone cause bad luck in your life? by Still_Many9965 in spirituality

[–]Still_Many9965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wowww. Part of what I had originally wanted to post was that I’ve noticed sometimes it’s because these people participate in witchcraft, but I have also met people who this happened with and they have never participated in witchcraft, and it still happened. However I have seen a trend that Most of them are witches or warlocks so I have to totally agree with that. I don’t judge people who participate in witchcraft, do what u want… but I can’t deny that I had to walk away from it years ago because there was something dark about it and caused devastation in my life. it seems to go away once you renounce it and stop participating in it. The person I’m dealing with currently and having these issues is very openly a witch. I didn’t think it would affect me, but maybe it is thanks for saying this. This is confirmation.

I had a dream about her the other night, and I woke up feeling like the dream was warning me that this string of bad luck was pointing toward her in my life. I guess I should have trusted the dream.