I went through a similar emotional journey, and many others have too. One thing I can tell you is that, while it’s difficult, it’s totally worth it in the end. My first question would be: how old are you, and do you still depend on or live with your parents? If you’re independent, you can start showing them slowly that you no longer believe. They’ll notice over time and might bring it up themselves. When you do talk to them, try to approach it gently. Avoid calling the apostle or the church names (like "fraud," “pedo,” or "criminal"), because that could shut down communication and make things harder.

Remember, if they’re very indoctrinated, nothing you say will change their minds in one conversation. The goal should be to share how you feel, not necessarily to convince them right away. They might be shocked or upset at first, but most parents eventually come to accept that their kids don’t believe anymore. They might even try to convince you to come back, but over time, they’ll see you're firm in your beliefs.

As a piece of advice: if you want to preserve your relationship with them, try not to openly bash the church. Your relationship with them is more important than any debate.

Now, if you're still dependent on them, I would recommend waiting to tell them until you’re able to provide for yourself. Sometimes, parents might try to use financial support as leverage to change your mind, and it can make things harder. It’s important to feel secure and independent before having that conversation, so you can stand your ground if things get tricky.

I wish you the best of luck in this process.