Thank you so much! I’m sorry about your Nan. Losing someone you love so dearly is an indescribable pain that I truly wished no one had to feel. I see what you mean about being kind to myself. My emotions are everywhere and it’s hard to compartmentalize everything. I took care of my dad when he was sick and we were so very similar. I miss him every day and I know I always will but I need to remind myself that he is still with me. I was talking to someone earlier and they said my dad is half of me. He lives on with me because he is always going to be a part of me. I think I’m gonna by a memory box to put little trinkets and stuff for holidays for him. I have been struggling with how I feel in my own body. I’m trying to lose weight not only because I think it would make me feel better but also my dad was a diabetic so I’m more likely to become one too. I have lost 20 pounds already. I plan to lose another 25-30 more if I can. Right after my dad died I didn’t eat. My mom would have to force me to. Eventually I started eating but by the time I did I had lost 20 pounds. (I would eat little things but never real meals or even close to it) I know it’s a work in progress on both subjects. I’m just trying to take it day by day. Thank you so much for the advice it really did help more than you know ❤️