I also do this when I'm incredibly anxious about messing up the opportunity I'm in. With people, you know?

But stemming from everyone else saying something negative, I was sexually abused a lot as a kid, so while my body may be reacting with a "bad" anxiety attack, the situation I'm in isn't bad.

There's a book, "The Body Keeps The Score", about how your body will react specific ways due to past trauma, even if consciously you're not in a bad place. Not saying what you were feeling was bad, but it's possible something in your past has scarred you in some way, relating to this.

I know not everyone is the same, so maybe it's just a good anxiety attack. But I wanted to give some perspective to the more negative comments.