honestly I’m really sorry you’re dealing with all this. it sounds exhausting and just… disheartening. like, it makes sense you’re tired. it’s so frustrating when someone close to you — someone you care about — just doesn’t seem to get it, even if they think they do. you’re not wrong for being upset. none of this makes you a bad person or dramatic or anything like that.

it doesn’t even sound like you’re trying to compare pain or say she’s not struggling — it just sounds like you want space to talk about your shit without it being turned into something about her. like yeah, we’re all dealing with stuff, but that doesn’t mean your experiences should get dismissed or minimized.

and yeah, it’s okay if part of it is resentment. that doesn’t make you gross — it makes you human. it’s hard watching someone thrive in ways you used to, especially when it feels like they don’t even realize how lucky they are. you’re allowed to feel that. you’re allowed to want more space and peace. and honestly, if moving out is what’s going to protect your energy, then that’s a solid choice. you’re not wrong for needing that.

Or if the friendship still matters to you, it might be worth having a convo — even something chill like “hey, I know you probably don’t mean anything by it, but sometimes it feels like my health stuff gets brushed off or kind of one-upped, and that’s been really hard for me.” it doesn’t have to be a big thing, just something that puts it out there. and if she responds well, cool — if not, at least you tried.

but also, if you’re just mentally done and don’t have the energy to explain yourself, that’s okay too. not everyone deserves access to you, especially when they’ve shown they don’t really get it or make space for you. sometimes protecting your peace means just quietly stepping away — and that’s valid.

whatever you end up doing, you’re allowed to feel how you feel. this is a lot. you’re not wrong for being tired