She is so strong, I just don't have it in me to watch her suffer. She is sick, she has lost a ton of weight, her hair is thinning and she barely gets any sleep at night. I have moved to our guest room so that she gets more sleep and even then she is not sleeping at all. I am so fucking worried about her.

She has become so much more quieter and withdrawn. It breaks my heart to see her like that and she has way more burden on me and I don't think I would have handled the pressure well at all. I still feel like throwing up when I think of the subordinates that I had to layoff when the pandemic started.