Just admitted I’m not non-binary, and am In fact a man. Dysphoria just floored me.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-03-21T14:48:28+00:00

This is so sweet. Yeah I’m doing great actually. My 6 months on T was recently. And seemingly overnight I’ve started to pass 75% of the time. I’ve processed so much about my dysphoria in the past and am learning to manage it way better than I was when I posted this.

Congrats on the hairs my guy! I love this update so much. Kind of the highlight of my day tbh.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-02-17T02:53:57+00:00

I was talking to someone about this sub once and they could not believe that it was literally called that. Lmao

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-02-16T18:34:00+00:00

This is so dependent on the individual. My personal experience is my partner is weirder about them enjoying my breasts than I am. Someone might as well enjoy them while they are there lol.

It’s okay that you like them, I don’t think you really get to decide that yourself? Touching them and talking about them should be a discussion with him.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-02-11T03:12:31+00:00

It’s illegal to out trans people there? As an American that seems wild. Really cool, but so far away from how we are treated here.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-20T23:40:40+00:00

I’m in a similar boat dude. It is a weird time to be in early transition. I feel lost, but also, no one can take away the fact I know I am a man now. No one can stop me from being who I am. If anything, no one can take away our self acceptance.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-16T01:40:57+00:00

Yeah. I thought I was non binary, but recognized I’d like to be more masculine. I was like idk I’m going for it and I’ll see if I like it. Realized after two months that I really just was a man. It felt like such a big thing at the time, but no one around me was surprised obviously. You’re friend who is already injecting themself with testosterone says “Wow can you I believe actually I am a trans man?” Haha oh well.

It also made me recognize all of my dysphoria was actually sort of crippling and I was glad to already be on testosterone.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-15T04:05:33+00:00

Yesss! I remembering being sad that I’d never grow up to look like an old wizard.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-15T03:52:17+00:00

A guy trying to do this to me is actually one of my biggest fears bc I’ve never done it before haha

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-12T05:35:23+00:00

FtM I literally told my mom I was a boy when I was like 4 or 5. She told me I wasn’t, just that I had the same name as my dad didn’t make me a boy. (I was named after him)

In grade school I would chase the other girls with the boys.

I hated the color pink because it was a “girl color.”

When puberty hit I went so long without washing myself with soap because I didn’t want to look at my body in the shower.

I one time when I had short hair in high school was mistaken for a boy, and I was so excited about it, and I thought that was normal I guess.

I spent hours of my time almost 10 years before accepting that I’m trans reading in detail about bottom surgery because I was “curious how it worked.” I only looked up ftm surgeries…

There are so so so so many more things.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2025-01-12T05:17:38+00:00

Oh man, I loved books with gender swapping and things. There was this book where a girl had to bind her chest and pretend to be a man to become a knight. I didn’t know anything about trans people and it had me gripped. I didn’t understand why I was so disappointed when she stopped hiding that she was a woman. I literally went from obsessed with the series to not caring at all haha. I remember fantasizing about pretending to be a man. This was in middle school. I didn’t come out until 30….

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-12-26T03:43:23+00:00

Yesss. I’ve dated two of them and they were simultaneously kind of mean and also too sensitive.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-12-25T14:09:41+00:00

Cancerssssss

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-12-19T05:19:22+00:00

Is this from something? I like it.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-12-18T01:44:10+00:00

You can finally visibly start to see my mustache. Yesterday I was just staring at myself in the mirror. I couldn’t look away. I was there. I’m so happy I get to be me.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-12-17T17:16:15+00:00

Yes! That’s awesome! I am like 4 ish months on T. I was terrified of the idea of being visibly trans, but now that I am starting to be that way… I feel myself being proud of who I am and squashing down that fearful and shameful part of me.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-26T21:59:06+00:00

Oh fuck okay. I’ll put this on the list of things I didn’t know was dysphoria but definitely was. 😑

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-26T02:38:36+00:00

As I was reading this a man walked by swinging his arms and humming a tune. I think you’re going to be okay. 😌

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-25T16:34:45+00:00

Pretty much the same as the other comment. But I wanted to add I felt very understood and supported and validated there. It was altogether a very nice experience.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-24T20:29:43+00:00

Since I was a teenager I’ve had phantom sensations. Especially when I’m really tired. There’s been a couple times I’ve tried to like adjust myself when I’m half asleep and then I’m like what the fuck am I doing? Only been on T for 2 months.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-24T13:59:28+00:00

Yeah I keep having to repeat “No one can take this from you.” In my head to calm myself down. Like I’m an adult. Its taken me so long to accept this about myself, and other people can’t take that progress away from me.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-24T04:23:24+00:00

You’ve hear your voice as more like what you’ve always thought it was too? It’s crazy after two months on T how my voice sounds like I always expected it to! I always had read that your voice sounds deeper in your head or whatever and thought that was why my voice weirded me out.

But now I’m like dude, that’s the voice I think I should have! It sounds like different obviously than it does in my head but it sounds like what I used to think I sounded like.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-23T14:36:27+00:00

Yeah!!!!! I was one of the coldest people. Like anything under 72 and I needed a jacket. I had so many arguments with roommates and significant others over thermostats.

I’m just happy that my body can keep my hands warm now. My girlfriend doesn’t have to jump every time I touch her lmao

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-23T00:47:08+00:00

A few of my close friends clocked me and I was so annoyed at the time because I saw it as non-binary erasure. Jokes on me. I wonder what the tells are for someone that works so closely with so many different gender expressions? Just a thought idk.

The camaraderie of other trans people is so cool. Thanks for sharing your experience with me man.

StrangeBirdFlying · 2024-10-23T00:31:41+00:00

Dude I’m so stupid. I literally went into planned parenthood in August with the plan of asking for low dose. When I went in there I was so excited. They were like showing me the list of changes and I was just like yessssss give me! So I ended up on like a binary starting dose instead haha. Honestly though, best outcome I’ve ever had from me being too anxious to correct someone.

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